I hated seeing Mom cry. This woman has been everything to me; a shoulder to cry on, a voice of reason when I was close to crashing out, a foot in my ass when I was fuckin up, and a beacon of hope when I was at my lowest. Out of everyone, Mom was taking Derrick's death harder than everyone else, and her desire for revenge... well that type of anger and hatred for the people responsible for killing her son could only come from a mother. I grabbed a box of Kleenex and handed it to her and watched as dried her eyes.... I made sure to watch because it helped steel my resolve, it's not like I needed a reason but it definitely helped, seeing my second mom cry it just.... The silence was broken by her phone ringing and Mom quickly answered it and walked off... I couldn't really pay attention to the conversation because at that exact moment, my phone alerted me to a text from Osiris.... It wasn't a long message but it was pretty obvious that he wanted to come over and I wasn't entirely sure if I wanted to see him... Was I horny? Hell yeah.... but I don't know... I felt like dealing with him was going to cause nothing but headaches and.... I stood there trying to figure out whether or not I should respond, I felt someone reading over my shoulder....
"Who is Osiris?" Mom asked and I knew there was really no way out of this conversation.
"This T.A. I met... he expressed interest but I'm not entirely sure if I share that... I mean, aside from the obvious physical attraction he seems like the type of dude who will cause me nothing but headaches." I said and Mom started laughing and it was good to see her smiling.
"Sounds like my junior year of college... there was this guy; toxic, red flags, danger... he was everything I tried to avoid and all it took was a slow dance, and the next thing I knew I had three boys who look exactly like his ass...." Mom said fondly. "I guess what I'm saying is you never know... but there's nothing wrong with having some fun... you're young. Just make sure it's SAFE fun. I gotta get going... who knows how much longer they'll be out and I have to be back before they get home. We'll talk later...." Mom said walking towards the door.
"Aight and I promise not to tell De'Montrez." I said walking her to the door, then I remembered I was raised better than that and decided to walk her to her car. "You really think I should give him a chance?" I asked.
"No... but you should definitely invite him over, just to see how things go." She said getting in the car, I stood outside of the apartments and waited until her car was out of sight before going back inside and seeing that I had two missed text.
T'YAN: I gotta admit, I had a lot of fun today. Even though we didn't get to spend much time together I still enjoyed myself. That being said I was wondering if you'd be down for breakfast tomorrow. If so just let me know and I'll grab everything I need before coming over tomorrow morning.
OSIRIS: No lie... I can't stop thinking about you... my dick has been brick since I saw you and this muthafucker won't go down... send me the addy and I'll be there so we can talk about life... play Scrabble... whatever you want....
See.... T'Yan's message was sweet and innocent, I had no problem replying and letting him know I'd love to have breakfast with him... now Osiris.... aight full disclosure his message was harder to respond to because he was hitting the thing I wanted most... I wanted some dick and he was offering. Was wrong for talking to both of them? I mean, T'Yan made it perfectly clear that he wanted to take things slow and we just met earlier today... it's not like he was my nigga.... Before I talked myself out of it, I sent Osiris my address and hopped in the shower.
"I'm outside..." Osiris said and I hated that he made me feel so damn nervous and excited at the same time. I checked myself in the mirror one more time before stepping outside and seeing him standing by a black Lexus.
"A hoodie? Really?" I asked as I approached,
"I told you I'm DL.... can never be too careful. You never no who's watching." Osiris said staring into my eyes.
