I jump straight up and race to my car. I don't even think about my clothes, all that's on my mind is John. I need to know that he's ok. I need to hear his voice. I need him.
I drive to the hospital Shannon said he was in, in like 10 minutes. I get out of the car and realize that I only have slippers on. I shrug it off and go inside.
When I go inside I look around to see if I recognize anyone but I don't. I walk to the desk and ask for John. She seems kinda rude but I hardly notice. I just want to see him.
"Excuse me?" I ask politely
"Yes" the lady says without looking away from her computer.
"I need to see John Mayer please." I ask not so politely
"You can't see him now, he's still sleeping" she said snobby
"No, no, no, no, I need to see him now." I say almost yelling
"Lady calm down you have to wait." She said while finally looking at me.
"Ok, listen here, I need to get in there and see my boyfriend, I've been through hell and back this past week and you are only making things worse. Now, go on your computer and search up John Mayer and tell me the room number for christs sake" that was so unintentional but- who am I kidding, I meant every word of it.
"Uh, ok." She whispered while typing
"His room number is 366 on the 3rd floor. I'm very sorry for the inconvenience" she said bluntly
"Well thank you very much ma'am" I said and walked away
I went to the elevator and pushed the up button. I was very nervous and my palms were sweating just a little.
As the elevator came, a family walked over to the elevator also. There was a mom, dad, a little girl, and a baby boy? They were so cute, they looked like the perfect little family. One day I wish to be like that.
The elevator came and opened and we all walked in. I pushed the 3 button and the woman pressed the 6 button. Like I said before I was very nervous so I might of been a little weird. I kept swallowing my saliva until there was nothing to swallow so I tried to swallow air. That only made me cough. The cough triggered the family to do a uncomfortable stare. That stare was VERY uncomfortable. I wanted to get out as soon as possible.
The very uncomfortable elevator soon came to a stop at the 3rd floor and I walked out. As I walked out I turned around and said "well, it has been a very uncomfortable ride, but you guys look like a very happy family and-" the elevator closed. I dont know why I said that, I just wanted something to ease the nerves in my body.
I reach room 366. I knew nobody would be in there because I had to shout at the woman down stairs to give me the number, but I was still really nervous. I think the fact that I don't know if our relationship was ok or not, well obviously our relationship isn't but, yeah well never mind.
I decide to go in because I was just working myself up more by talking to myself.
I knock on the door a few times and open the door. I walk in and my heart drops.
I see John laying on the bed lifeless. I mean he's alive but looking at him and his condition I would've guessed he wasn't. It took me alot to not tear up but I guess a lot wasn't enough. I dreaded the fact that the first time John would see me in months was because he was in an accident.
I walked over to his bed and sat down on the chair next to him. I couldn't even look at him without tearing up, how do I expect myself to talk to him without crying?
I reach over and take hold of his warm, big, beautiful hand. This was the last thing I wanted to be doing right now, holding his hand IN A HOSPITAL!
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I wake up a couple hours later to the sun shining in my face and the birds chirping. I pick up my head from Johns thigh and look around. I see everything I saw last night and it sucked.
"What a terrible day" I said whispering.
When I said that I felt a little squeez on my hand. I didnt think much of it except for like a twitch or something, until I felt my hand get squeezed a little tighter. I started hearing groans coming from Johns direction. My attention instantly points to John.
I see his eyes pry open. He looks frightened, like he doesn't know where he is. That scares me. What if he doesn't remember me? What if he is scared of me?
"John?" I say in a kinda whisper-like thing.
He looks at me, but this time with a little relaxing look.
"Hey, John, honey?" I say. I hear him groan a little more and he openes his mouth.
"Katy?" My eyes tear up. I haven't heard him say anything in a long time and I wasnt entirely sure I would hear anything come out of his mouth ever again.
"Hi" I say trying to keep back the tears that are stinging my eyes.
"Uh, Katy?" John says like he's unsure of something
"Yeah?" I say worried.
I hear him gasp and try to lean in but he grunts in pain.
"Oh, no, no, no, you have to stay still." I reassure him
"Katy?" This time he has tears in his eyes. Its almost like he was gonna cry.
I giggle a little, not knowing what to do.
"Come here, please" he says
I go closer to him and he pulls me into a hug. It was honestly the best hug I've ever gotten. It was warm, sweet, and had lots of love. I was confused at first but then I hugged him back.
"Katy I missed you so much" John says. I can hear him sniffling. This moment makes me wanna just cry. I let my eyes close and just let the tears flow down my cheaks. This felt right. This felt like it was all real.
"I love you Katy, I really do." John said and that made the tears come even more. I guess he heard me sniffle, so he pulled me away and wiped them.
"Hey, hey" he said while wiping them.
"Your not mad anymore?" I asked
"No, babe and I hope your not either" he said.
"No," I giggle "I'm definitely not mad anymore" I look down and he lifts my chin up and pulls me in.
We kissed. We kissed like we haven't touched each others body's in a long time, mostly because we haven't. I missed the taste of his sweet lips and the touch of his soft lips.
He pulls away and says "I love you"
I giggle and say "I love you too."
This moment was perfect. It was a perfect kiss. It was all perfect.
