"Do it Mayer" Katy said.
In those short few seconds I knew that if I kissed her our relationship would change completely. Wasn't that what I wanted? If so, then why was I doubting myself so much?
I stroked her cheek and leaned in, my breathing becoming shakier and shakier. Finally, I felt her lips go in contact with mine. The soft touch of her smooth lips were all that I was focused on.
As I felt our kiss get more and more heated I remember how much I miss her. I missed kissing her. It was a purely magical moment for us.
I've been waiting over a month to feel her warm embrace again and its just as powerful as I remember.
I got caught up in the moment and when I snapped back i realized how deep its gotten. Katy's arms were around my neck, holding on for dear life and my hands were wrapped around her waist pulling her closer to me each second.
"Katy-" I said, stopping the incredible moment.
"Yeah John" she replied back to me.
"I miss you" I admitted. Just saying those words felt like I was lifting a five-hundred pound weight off of my chest.
The look in her eyes made me realize how much I want her back, how much I need her back.
As we keep contact for a reasonable amount of time I start to see tears forming in her eyes.
"John" she says in a whimper.
"Yeah" I say back, rubbing my hand up and down her back.
"Why do you do this? I'm sorry but, I don't believe you." As she says this a tear comes falling down her face.
"Katy" I say, my body becoming weaker and weaker.
"I miss you to death. You are the one that I want, need, and love. This past month has honestly been the hardest month of my life. I know that sounds overdramatic but I'm not kidding. Loosing you feels like I lost my life." Words poor out of my mouth uncontrollably. Every last word that came out of my mouth was genuine and heartfelt.
"It would make me the happiest man on earth if you could give me a second chance" I continued.
As I stood there waiting for something to happen I couldn't help but think that she wasn't gonna take me back. I messed up and now I was really going to pay for it.
I watch as Katy's eyes close and more and more tears fall. It breaks my heart to see her cry.
She opens her eyes and within a second I feel our faces crashing in with each other.
The amount of passion that went into this kiss was almost unreal. Every second felt like I was walking on air and it only made me crave her even more.
In that amazing moment I realized that Katy was the one that I am supposed to be with. Katy is the love of my life and I don't even know how I managed to live all my life without her. Just being with her made me feel like I was home.
Katy is my person. My other half. My love.
As we continued to make tongue babies I lifted her up and carried her to my bedroom. I sat her down on my bed and continued.
The taste of her lips were like a drug, I never want to quit.
I felt Katy lean back onto the bed and of course I leaned back too. As we adjust ourselves I felt Katy get up and straddle herself on my hips.
Katy's P.O.V.
It was actually happening. I was finally able the kiss the one man I've been dying to kiss.
It was like my whole world was changing. My light was finally found.
"I'm sorry" I say. I couldn't help the urge to apologize. I don't know why I felt the need to but it made me feel like I was doing something right.
"For what?" He asked.
"For everything. All the things I put you through, all the hurt I put on you and for all the madness we have." I say. The look in his eyes made me feel safe and I wasn't willing to do anything anymore to mess this up.
"Kate, its okay. You don't need to apologize. Relationships have their ups and downs, that's what makes them a relationship." Those words got to me. He was right. I can't just give up at any given moment just because I'm scared to hurt someone or myself. I need to learn to love correctly.
In that moment I leaned over and gave him a quick kiss, giving me all the strength in the world to do what I was about to do.
"I love you" I confess
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Boring but it'll get better I promise ;)
