Katy's P.O.V.
1 week later
Since the whole "incident" that happened with John, my life basically sucks. I can't be excited whenever John is calling, or I can't be cheerful that he's coming home soon, as a matter of fact, I can't be cheerful at all. This whole thing sucks.
I think he's called me at least 20 times. I've ignored all of them.
"Katy, you okay?" My sister Angela asks. I snap out of my thoughts, for what felt like the 10th time today. Angela stopped by earlier today to check on me, but personally I think I'm fine. I don't like how people think I can't take care of myself when I'm alone. It makes me feel like I'm a baby.
"Yeah, I'm A-okay" I say to her while giving her a thumbs up. I point my head towards my lap and smile. Of course it was a fake smile, but I didn't want Angela to worry.
"Katy, are you sure?" I look at her again and drop the smile. I could feel my insides trembling. I knew what was gonna happen. I looked down and shrugged my shoulders. I put my hands on my lap and played with my nails. I was trying my best to not cry right then and there. My body was tensing up and I could feel little twitch like feels in my stomach. It was coming.
A couple tears escaped my eyes. For some reason I feel like I failed, like I didn't do enough to make this a good relationship. It was my fault he cheated, I bore wonderful people like him. I heard Angela come towards me and sit down. I kept my head down, ashamed of myself. She wrapped her arm around my shoulders and pulled me towards her. I instantly leaned myself in for a hug. It felt so good to be held again. I haven't been hugged by someone since John left.
"Its gonna be ok" she whispered in my ear. I knew it wasn't so I tried to think like her. She always positively thinking, why couldn't I be like that?
Before I knew it my eyes felt like water was being poured into them. I felt Angela's small hand rub my back and it felt so comforting.
"I love you Katy" she said and unhooked herself from the hug. I felt her kiss my cheek.
"Now I have to go but you know you can call me if you need anything okay?" She rested her hands on mine and gave them a small squeeze. I nodded my head and gave her a quick smile. She got up and grabbed her purse.
"Bye love you" she said.
"I love you too" I said back. She opened the door and walked out. As soon as she did I fell back on the couch. I really appreciated her, she was my sister and I loved her to death. What would I do without her?
I rested my arm on my four head and closed my eyes. Even though I was still very mad at John, I missed him oh so very much. I would do anything for all this mess to go away and just be in his arms again.
A couple minutes of extreme thinking later, I heard a knock at the door. I almost thought it was just my imagination, but I heard it again. I took my hand off of my four head and got up. I walked over to the door, thinking it was Angela and she forgot something.
I opened the door. The sun was beaming right in my eyes so I couldn't see who it was. I squinted and immediately saw who it was.
"John? No, no, no" I backed up and attempted to close the door but he reached out to stop me.
"Katy, please wait" I looked in his eyes and they were full of tears.
I really wanted to run up and hug him but I can't shake the thought of him cheating.
"What?" I said bluntly. My heart was beating so rapidly I couldn't handle it.
"Can I come in?" He said. I heard him inhale and exhale. I was stuck. Of course I wanted to let him in but I had to show him I was stronger than that.
"No you can't." I whispered just loud enough for him to hear me. He cleared his throat and began to speak.
"Katy, its not what you think, please hear me out" he got closer to me and I backed up. As soon as I did that he looked down. I couldn't bare to keep talking to him like this so I walked away. I kept the door open hinting he could come in.
I sat down on the couch and crossed my arms. I saw John appear in the walkway looking as heartbroken as ever. He walked over to the same couch I was sitting on and sat down.
I stared the wall hoping to not cry.
"Katy, I didn't do it" he whispered. I furrowed my eyebrows, confused.
"And I'm very hurt that you would even think I would." I felt him move. I could feel him staring at me and it was making me feel uneasy.
"What?" I hesitantly said. My chest felt like a weight was being lifted off of it. All the sudden I had a wave of guilt hit me.
"I didn't do it. Katy, why would I? You're to important to me and you know that." He moved closer to me and put his hand on my hand. I was having mixed emotions about this.
Before I noticed, I had tears falling from my eyes, that John was wiping off. I didn't know what to say.
"Then who was that?" I put my head down in embarrassment.
"Um that was my cousin. She came to see my show and I felt like I should go out to eat with her, after all, I haven't seen her in a while." He chuckled. I felt like an idiot, a total idiot. I couldn't help the emotions inside of me that so badly wanted me to cry. I looked at him with tears streaming down my face.
"Really?" I asked. He took his hand and wiped the warm tears off.
"Yeah, really" as soon as he said that I jumped up and on him, hugging him as tight as ever. I felt really bad for treating him this way.
"I'm so sorry" I cried into his neck. He rubbed my back which felt so relaxing.
"It's ok, I missed you so much." He wrapped both his arms around my thin waist and squeezed me tight.
"Me too" I said back. I stopped hugging him and looked at him
"John I really am sorry" I wanted him to know how sorry I actually was. I put my hands on both sides of his cheeks
"Katy, I know you are, and I forgive you completely, 100%." I smiled at the words that came out of his mouth.
I looked into his eyes and kept smiling. I squeezed his face and kissed him. I had a wonderful feeling in my body, a feeling of unconditional love and hope.
I stopped kissing him and said "why are you here?" He looked at me with a sincere look.
"You wouldn't answer your phone so I can tell you who she was, so I flew down here to tell you. I couldn't live with you being mad at me" he smiled shyly.
I was in shock. I made him fly all the way to LA from where ever he was just for me?
"How long are you staying?" I asked.
"Well, I have 3 days off, so 3 days, if that's ok" he smiled. I widened my eyes.
"That's more than ok" I squealed and kissed him one last time before he picked me up and brought me upstairs.
In the process of going up the steps he looked at me and said "Katy, i love you so much" I looked at him with a face full of amazement.
"I love you too" I said and he continued up the steps.
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