Johns P.O.V.
I was finally released from the hospital. I honestly don't really remember what happened at the accident. I don't really worry about that, all I worry about is my relationship. I don't know if Katy and I are back together or? I'm assuming she doesn't know either because she hasn't said anything to me the whole car ride 'home'.
"Katy?" I ask hesitant.
"Yeah?" She answers back, focusing her attention on the window.
Since someone else was driving the car we were bound to say something to each other.
"How are you?" I say turning my direction towards her.
"I'm fine, why?" She says while giggling.
"I don't know, I just wanted to know." I say
"I'm fine" she smiles widely and turns her attention back to the window.
We'll talk when we get there.
The driver pulls into the long driveway and stops in front of the house. I get out and run over to Katy's side and help her out.
"Oh, thank you" she takes my hand and gets out. She instantly let's go of it when we start walking. I look over at her and her head is down but she's smiling.
We make it inside and I sit down. But she doesn't.
"John," she tries to say but cuts herself off.
"Katy," I say.
"John, what are we?" She looks down to the floor.
"What do you mean?" I say. I knew what she ment but I was being a total douche.
"No, don't act dumb. I know you know what I'm talking about. Just please answer my question." Say says with slight tears in her eyes.
I sigh and look down to my pants.
"Katy, I don't know what this is. All I know is I want you. I want to be with you. I want you and just you." I say hesitant
"No! You are still mad, you have to be!" She yells. I can see more tears filling her eyes and I can't stand it.
"NO!" I shout not on purpose. "Katy. I can never be mad at you." I stand up confessing all that I've held in. "Katy, you are the love of my life, and even if you say or do hate me, I would still love you with all my heart. I would still love you with all the bones in my body. I still love you." By the time I was finished Katy had a couple tears flowing down her cheeks, I was closer to her body, and my hand was on her cheek.
"No, no, no, you cant. I said a terrible thing, how?" Seeing Katy like this was heartbreaking, well more than heartbreaking. She backed away from me and turned around so her back was facing me.
"You don't forgive me do you? You hate me don't you?" She started rubbing her hands together. "You know I hated myself for saying suck terrible words. And now you hate me. And trust me, I still hate myself." She turned around and I stepped closer to her.
"Katy-"
"No, stop." I didn't know what was wrong. I didn't know why she was acting like this. She was freaking out for no reason.
"Katy-" I tried to say but she cut me off once again.
"John please, can you just tell me the truth? Please. So I can die happy." She was trying to make me say something that was totally untrue.
"Katy! Stop! Listen to yourself. Do you not want me to love you?" I was starting to get hurt by her not believing me.
"Of course I want you to love me but I know you don't anym-" this time I cut her off.
"KATY STOP! I LOVE YOU AND YOU KNOW IT! I love you with all my heart. Why won't you listen?" I couldn't take it anymore.
"Katy, you are the one that I'm gonna marry one day and you are the one I'm gonna have children with. Just please listen to me." I needed her to know.
I looked in her, red, puffy eyes. I inched closer to her and put my hand in her face.
"Please" I whispered. She looked at me with sincere eyes. I leaned in and pressed my lips against hers. She inhaled. To be totally honest, i thought she was gonna pull away, but she didn't.
She leaned in closer and put her hand on the back of my neck. We kept kissing and I didnt know if I should stop or not.
Soon she started sniffling. I opened my eyes. She pulled away and started crying.
"Katy," I said but she interrupted me by hugging me. She put her hands around my neck and kept sobbing. "I'm so sorry" she said as she continued to cry.
"Kate, you know you'll always be my baby. And I won't ever let you go." As soon as I got done talking, I felt her squeeze tighter. "Katy, I love you."
