My homelands in your eyes

Home is with you

It was two months after your wedding and you are on the bathroom floor throwing up into the toilet. "I called Miguel he says he'll be home as soon as he can but he on the phone and wants to talk to you." Lettie said. "Hey mi amor I heard you're feeling bad." He says. "Yes you did this to me I think I'm pregnant." You said because you had been mimicking the all the signs you had when you were pregnant with Evie. "I told you I was good and I'd put another baby in you." He says you could hear the smirk in his tone. "Oh baby I knew you were good I just didn't think you would get me pregnant again this soon." You said through the phone. "You didn't think you were going to get pregnant when I fuck you raw several times a day." He says. You gasped. "Miguel Galindo." You say. "What I'm not ashamed or embarrassed to say that I fuck my sexy ass wife several times a day." You knew his driver was getting an ear full but Miguel didn't care and he wouldn't say anything if he valued his life. "How far out are you I need you." You said. Although he did manage to fuck you severely times a day it was either way early in the morning or way too late at night because he was gone most of the time. "I miss you." You whispered through the phone. "Oh baby I miss you to I'll be home in a half hour and I'll take you to the doctors. I'm not missing a single part of this pregnancy since I missed large parts of the last two. "Did you miss any of Emily's pregnancy with Cristobal?" You asked. "Yes she had completely iced me out by then so I don't want to miss another." He said you could hear the little sadness in is voice not for remorse for Emily but for missing all his baby's pregnancy and one birth. "I'm sorry." You said now in tears. "Oh baby don't cry it's not your fault." He says wishing he was there to hold you. "It is I've been a terrible wife and mother I left you and the kids for so long." You say still sat on the bathroom floor of your new home you had just moved in to a month ago. "Baby that's the hormones talking you are the best mom and wife in the world and you are the love of my life you have even took in Lettie when you didn't have to baby you are my sweet baby girl and I love you." Miguel said through the phone. Lettie came in with the new nanny coming in behind her with the kids fallowing in after her. You had hired another nanny to help Maria and payed Lettie for helping with them. You were still on the phone with Miguel he was just listening to you through the phone. "Mommy why are you crying?" Cristobal asked. "Mom's just not feeling well." You say "I'm sorry I tried keeping them out." The nanny Rosa said. "It's ok." You said as Cristobal sat down in your lap and played with your hair you smiled because it's the same thing his dad does when he comforts you. "Baby are you ok." Miguel asked still on the phone. "Yes the kids have come to check on me." You say as now everyone even Rosa and Lettie have joined you Maria was putting away baby clothes. "Would you ask Lettie to call the doctor's office and tell them to stay open for us we've got stuck in traffic over the border." You tell Lettie what Miguel asked and she's off on the phone. 45 minutes later you are up and ready to go to the doctors who agreed to stay open for you yeah you could have just taken an at home pregnancy test by Miguel likes to do a full screening and get ultrasound photos as early as he can. Final Miguel pulled up and was out of the car before it even came to a complete stop. "Baby slow down." You said as he comes barreling through the door. He was on you in an instant kissing you ever since you came back he's been clingy and overly affectionate and you loved it because you love him just as much as he loved you. He peppered you with kisses. You giggle. "We have to go they are already keeping the office open late." You tell him. "They can wait." Miguel said. Miguel was on top of the world because the monster he became after you left has invoked a fear in everyone that makes them subservient. When you left every shred of humanity and kindness that he had in him left with you he had gotten so bad he distanced himself from the kids but still gave them kindness in the best way he knew how. Everyone lived in fear of Miguel even more than before and now that he didn't work with the Mayans anymore after they let Coco, E.Z, Angel and Gilly stay Miguel cut them off. He wanted to killed them but because of you he didn't. You had only see Coco twice since your wedding and that's when he was late dropping Lettie off after he visited because she lives with you which according to her the club in not doing very well in an aspect. That's when you were interrupted by everyone rushing into the living room even your grandma who you had started to see less and less of as she was always out with Dita or with other friends you think she got a boyfriend but haven't asked her about it yet. Evie came to sit in your lap as Miguel sat down next to you and leaned in close so he was touching you. "Mama can I come?" She asked as she reached out for Miguel and he took her from you as Maria handed you Jose. "You'll have to ask daddy." You tell her. "Can we?" Cristobal asked. While stick out his lower lip at his dad. "Does everyone want to go and that's why you all are here?" Miguel asked. They all nod. "We are going to need a lot of security and security has to stay here." Miguel says. Your family went from your gran to your gran and Miguel and Cristobal and his mom now you've add two more kids and Lettie. "I don't think we have enough cars." Miguel said. "I think we can make it work but we have to go now." You said. You manage to get everyone in the car and finally you all made it to the doctors. Everyone got out and came in. "Hello we're for an appointment for y/n Galindo." Miguel said. He was holding Evie and you were holding Jose on your chest and you held Cristobal hand. "Yes the doctor will see you immediately please only the parents to be in the room." The nurse said. You handed Jose off to Rosa and fallow the nurse back. "Mrs. Galindo it's good to have you back." The doctor said. "So we're here to see if you're pregnant with baby number three?" The doctor asked. "Um no number four I had my son four months ago." You said. "Let's stop with the twenty questions and get to seeing if she pregnant." Miguel said. He could tell you were getting uncomfortable about the question. You lay back as she puts gloves on and you lift your shirt and Miguel takes your hand and she squeezed the gel on your stomach and pressed the wand to your stomach and moved it around the room was quite and you sat waiting to see if she found anything then you heard heart beats her face fell. "What? What is it?" Miguel said. Kissing your hand. "I hear more than one heart beat." She said. "Oh my God twins?" You ask. "Yes I'm seeing two babies." She said turning the monitor towards you and Miguel and point to the two little blobs on the screen. "Oh I'm good two baby's at one time." Miguel said. "Very funny Miguel but I can't do this." You said tears welling up in your eyes. "Woah it's ok could you give us a minute doc?" Miguel said. The doctor got up and walked out of the door. "What's wrong?" Miguel said. "Miguel don't you think throwing two more kids into the chaotic life's we live is a bad idea?" You said now in full on tears. "Sweet girl I know our lives are chaotic but don't you think we can handle it we already have three kids we can do this." He said wiping a tear from your check. "I was really hoping it was no baby because I love you and our kids but five children is too much. I know it's unrealistic to think I wouldn't be pregnant with how much we have sex with no protection but I was really hoping it wasn't this." You say. "Do you not want our baby? I mean I know stuff happens every time you're pregnant but I promise nothing will happen this time." He asked. "I do but I need time." You said. You could see a wave of fear come over his face as his face fell. "Please don't leave me again I won't survive it." He said pulling you closer to him. "I'm not going to leave I just need to think about what I'm going to do." You said. "What you're going to do?" He asked. Because of the last year you've become super independent and Miguel hates it. He wants to baby you and spoil you I mean you are his baby. "Yes Miguel what I'm going to do." You said. "They're not just your baby's." Miguel said. "Oh so you're carrying them in your womb?" You ask him angrily getting up from the bed. "No im not but don't act like I didn't contribute to any of it." He said now standing up out of his seat. "Yes I get you contributed but that doesn't mean that you have to carry them for the next 9 months knowing they have to be brought into the crazy ass life." You said and Miguel cringed at the curse word that came out of your mouth you use to not do that. "I don't know this person you've change and I don't like it I want the old you back." Miguel finally said what he's been holding in since he found you. "The old me was weak the old me died the day I left and had to fend for myself. You think I can be some sweet nieve little girl after all the things I went through this life is too much." You said walking out the door every one was sitting in the cushioned waiting room chairs pretending you weren't fighting. "Nestor we're leaving." You say walking towards the door he wanted to ask Miguel if it's ok but they had all been told that what you say goes just as much as Miguel. You wanted to piss Miguel off so once you go in the car you told Nestor to take you to a motel. "Do you think that's a good idea?" He asked. "I don't care just take me." You snap at him. Once you get to the motel you turned off your phone and told Nestor not to contact him. You sat in the silence of the motel thinking about what to do you could always leave again but Miguel would never stop looking for you what about divorce? You could pack up all your things and move back into your grandmas house and take the kids and Lettie if he didn't like who you were that was his fault that you fell apart in a world of his own making maybe you weren't as strong as Emily but maybe she didn't go though all the things you've gone through. Two hours later you had settle for divorce and to get rid of these baby when there was a knock on the door thinking it was Miguel you didn't answer till you heard his voice. "Come on let's talk about this I'm sorry about what I said I just want my sweet girl back please." Miguel begged but you didn't answer him then you heard Nestor telling Miguel to give you a break and he'll keep an eye on you. You then didn't hear anything for a while but you thought about it and you want to be his sweet baby girl again you just didn't know how you sat thinking for a while then with heavy eyelids you were a sleep. When you woke it was dark out you look at you phone and you had six missed calls and it was 2 am you walk out of room and go to the car and you can see Miguel was with Nestor and they were both a sleep with a car of Miguel's men who where sitting awake in the car. "Mrs. Galindo what are you doing out here?" One of them asked. "I'm getting Miguel and I'm taking him inside." You say. "It isn't safe out here." The other one said. "Yeah I know isn't that why you're here?" You ask him angrily for asking a stupid question. You open the door and lightly shake Miguel. He slowly opens his eyes. When he saw you he immediately looked you over. "Are you ok?" He asked. "We need to talk." You tell him without answering his question. He took your hand and pulled you towards the room you left out of. "So what did you want to talk about?" Miguel asked. "This is going to be the hardest thing I've ever had to say but I think we should get a divorce we clearly are two different people now and I love you I'll always love you you can keep the house me and my gran will move back into her house we'll have spilt custody of the kids and I'm getting an abortion." You say in what feels like all in one breath. Miguel had an angry look on his face. "So you get to make all these decisions without me? What if I can't live without you? I barely held it together when you left you are my strength my heart my soulmate. Have you forgot we are soulmates? I don't want you to get an abortion don't I get a say? Please don't leave me please I'll give it all up for you." He said walking up to you and he put his hand on your face and kissed you. You felt the tears start. "Miguel I'm sorry but I can't you've already made to many enemies this life will fallow you every where and I want to be the sweet little girl that left but I just don't know how anymore I like being your sweet girl but I'm afraid of being hurt again. And no you don't get a say in if I get an abortion or not but if you continue to keep this life away from us we can keep the baby's and maybe when I don't have to be on edge anymore I can go back to being your sweet girl." You said because he had kept the scary part of his away from you the past two months you had to admit you did miss the sweet girl that you once were you did miss Miguel babying you but you were afraid to drop your guard. You spent the next couple of hours talking while Miguel held you till finally sleep took over you both.