Buffy The Vampire Slayer Preferences

Your Depression

Spike- I sat in his crypt waiting for him to get back remembering how empty my life felt even when he was there, the past haunted me constantly, but I always bottled it up when he came through into the room. Tears streamed down my cheeks as the time went on finally the noise swung open, I turned being startled wiping the salt from my face his eyes were already on mine "What's wrong, love?" he chimed shutting the metal behind him. Shaking my head "N-Nothing, anything out there?" he wiped his hands with a smirk "Killed a few bloody vampires but that's it." his smug energy fading as he walked over "I know that you aren't being honest, pet." his accent fluent causing whatever in me to throb "I'm fine." I lied, he tilted his head eyeing me up and down before grabbing my hand his fingers glazing over until he pulled away revealing the wetness I had tried to hide "Stop lying to me sweetness." his hands now brushing against his pants "Don't worry about it." I said avoiding eye contact "Oh baby, I can't just forget this... I've never seen you cry before." he pulled me in for a hug "I wasn't crying." I defended but he tusked at me "Tsk, tsk, tsk what did I tell you about the lying princess? How about I warm you up a nice Cupa and we cuddle?" a small smile tugged at my lips as he guided me to the makeshift kitchen.

Buffy- The world was going to shit there were vampires all around, the police couldn't do anything and the only one to stop it was my girlfriend but with her messy life, taking care of Dawn, her friends, saving the world, dying, first it was college now it was work, we hardly spent time together. I had just gotten into an argument with Willow and Xander since they weren't helping out like they should've for a group who thought bringing her back to life would be for the better. I sat in Buffy's room waiting for her to come home from patrolling, my arms folded I looked out of her legendary window overthinking about anything that could happen to her out there, anxiety coursing through my veins. I heard someone come home but I didn't know who it was, so I stayed on the bed besides my anger I was feeling a bit depressed since it felt like we were trapped in this never-ending spiral of ghouls always trying to kill us for no reason except my girl was The Slayer. Buffy came in swinging the door open shocked to see me right away "Y/N!" she shut it behind her quickly, my energy shifting from all my emotions trying to be cheery "Hey baby, h-how was patrolling?" I asked she smiled looking at me "It was fine, I didn't see anything we should be telling the others about." she giggled before making her way to me "What happened while I was gone?" I shook my head "Nothing, everything was fine." she looked at me as if she didn't believe me "Willow is downstairs crying, she told me to talk to you about it. Besides when I came in here you looked sad, what's wrong?" she gave me those sad eyes wanting answers, I groaned before spilling my feelings.

Angel- I didn't want to come to L.A. I liked it in Sunnydale keeping an eye on The Slayer while Angel continued to defeat evil in a different part of California. The only thing missing was him, but I didn't want to take the chance of him falling for Buffy all over again, so I kept him away with pointless phone calls telling him that nothing was going on. Once the Hellmouth had exploded thanks to Spike, my house had been destroyed, I had nowhere to go, so he was gracious to offer. Long story I felt guilty hating it there while he was out in the streets even though I could've gone with him, the depression of losing the house my mother gave to me before she passed was all too much. My life had changed drastically yet it was difficult to tell whether Angel cared or not, I sat in his office waiting for him to come back my brow furrowed deep in thought I couldn't hear him come in looking at me for a minute "You're brooding." he observed, I jumped up scared that he was there "N-No!" I squeaked, he chuckled for a second shaking his head "You know me, I do it all the time. What's the matter?" he asked getting coffee ready. I looked away from his side eye knowing he was trying to read me "You miss Sunnydale." he noted "W-What?" he smirked as if he could tell he was right "I've never seen you this... down." he handed me the cup as it warmed my hands "I'm fine." he sighed "You're so stubborn, you never want to admit how you feel." I scoffed "Shut up, you know everything about me." he kissed my head "I have some ice cream, you can have some if you tell me what's going on in that pretty head of yours." I nodded walking with him.

Willow- Laying in my bed in my apartment was a routine, not being able to get out of it while my girlfriend spent the whole day with her girlfriend was something I couldn't ignore. It was if she wanted the polyamorous thing because she felt sorry for me, I never met this girl she was with all I knew was that she was into witchcraft and went to the same College as she did. I sighed munching on my snacks, trash all over the place and she hadn't come over in a week. I was a mess, but jealousy was not my strong suit, I didn't notice that she was coming towards the room due to the volume of the television until she was in the corner of my eye gasping at the tornado that must've hit my room. The Y/N she knew would never leave it in such turmoil "Oh shit... Willow!" I jumped from my comfort rushing around trying to pick up before she came over to stop me "Y/N, what's going on?" I shook my head getting out of her grasp "Oh it's nothing! Just uh... forgot to pick up my trash is all." she scoffed knowing I was lying "Sit down, please." she whined "I'm fine, you didn't have to come here. You could go hang out with... what's her name?" she shook her head "Tara?" "Yeah." she sighed scratching the back of her neck "She knows about you, she told me to come here." she admitted, I looked at the ground silently "Is that what this is about?" I looked at her as if she was crazy, standing up again feeling defensive as if that reason was stupid or petty but the truth was, I had nobody else "No! I've just been super busy! W-Working on stuff!" I grabbed the trashcan ready to pick up the rest of the garbage "Y/N, just tell me the truth!" she scolded. I let out a deep breath "It feels like you don't even want me anymore! Okay? You're always hanging out with her, or Buffy, even Xander! You haven't been here in over a week, you only wanted to have this as a three-way relationship to spare my feelings but guess what? I figured it out!" her jaw dropped as she came up to me, my head facing the door to avoid her eye contact "Y/N, I love you. I'd like to say only you but I love Tara as well, it wasn't my decision. What is my decision is that I want to stay with you as well, I'm sorry that it's been a while, but a lot has been going on with The Scoobies. Demons... and such, then College, my friends and now Tara. So please don't be mad at me, I'm not avoiding you." she cupped my face looking up at me "L-Let me clean up here and you can spend the night if you want?" she nodded smiling "I'd like that." and she helped me.

Xander- I couldn't stand the way he would look at Buffy or Willow now Anya even after what happened went on, it made me overthink that he was doing things behind my back, I sacrificed everything just to be with him and now I was a broken mess hyperventilating and sobbing in the bathroom of The Magic Box. I must've been in there for a while because he was knocking on the door "Y/N, sweetie? It's been a little while, are you okay?" my breathing stopped, he must've heard me. My voice cracked "Y-Yeah I'm fine, just a minute." I blew my nose and washed my face with cold water. I couldn't feel anything but sadness right now it was even worse that it was obvious, I made sure I looked alright before unlocking the door walking out but I was grabbed and pulled into the training room I looked behind me to see the lobby empty for now everyone else must've been in the back "Y/N what's going on with you?" he asked pulling his hand from my mouth. I scoffed keeping my eyes away from him "Nothing, why would you pull me in here I swear if anyone saw-" he glared at me "What you should be more concerned about is if anyone heard you, and thankfully I was there to make sure nobody heard or saw. So, start talking, now." he folded his arms, I choked on my own words my mouth dry "I'm okay, really." he sighed grabbing me by the shoulders "I know you Y/N, I've known you for a while. What has you crying in the bathroom of a cheap magic store?" his tone sounded as if he was scolding me, a tear crept from my eye as his grip softened "I just... I feel like something is going on with you, and the girls. I went through a lot just to be with you and-" he rubbed his forehead with his hand seeming upset "Buffy rejected me, Willow is gay now and Anya is just crazy she still wants me but I broke it off with her because I've always wanted you." the end of his sentence didn't sound pointy or angry "You really mean that?" he wiped the water out of my eyes "Of course I do, I'd never hurt you." he kissed me causing my body to stiffen "Now I'm gonna get you some water and we can talk about it when we get home." he rubbed my back guiding me out with a kiss to the forehead.

(I told you I was going to put out a new chapter that most people would like or understand, this book has so many chapters it's not even funny. Now I will be working on Heartbeats Amidst The Undead| Daryl Dixon x Reader. If you are into The Walking Dead, please check it out, there are going to be 18 chapters and we are close to Season 3 with only 130 reads, I've put in a lot of effort and will continue to but I feel like it deserves more recognition! Thank you for your continuing support of my books regardless of my depression, mental issues and if you are a big fan you already know. I appreciate getting on this app to see how many reads I get for my work that I've put through for 10 years now.)