Hold on

Dead or alive or/the key

I arrived at the hilltop the gate opened i drove in I turn off the car then I looked to my side seeing Ellie was sleeping I opened the door car going to her side door opening Cameron Cody Dakota and Travis walks over to us

Ash your back Cody said I looked at them

Carl's gone I told him they all looked at me

Talk about it later not around Ellie she's not herself right now I told them Travis nods her head I pick Ellie up taking to a trailer laying her down then Jesus comes in

Ash i didn't know you were back he tells me

Just get back I mumbled out

What happened he asked

Alexandra got blown up by Negan I was on the way out. I heard shooting next thing. I fucking know that I found that Carl got bitten right now Ellie needs space she's not even herself without her brother I told him

Is there anything I could do for you? He asked

Can you keep an eye on her when she wakes up? Give her a glass of water food would be fucking great but right now I need space. I told him

You know I got your back he tells me I nodded my head

Thank you I said walking out I saw Maggie walking over to me and hugs me

I heard you okay she asked

Salty things I want to explain but I don't know how to I told her then the gate opened seeing everybody or realising that Carl has died smiles dropped Enid started to cry Maggie was already comforting her saying how destroyed she was already finding out Enid was a mess I looked down then I walked away feeling destroyed, not knowing what to say
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Later that day I started building my own axe. A really sharp axe something I've dream of building I'm doing it then Tara comes over to me

Cool axe she tells me i smiled

I'm not a big gun person, but I like having weapons that just in case I ask someone in the eyeball I told her she chuckled

Open the gates it's Rick Kal call out I looked up seeing Rick and Michonne walking in I looked at the both of them then I slowly try to walk away but Rick stop me we both looked at each other I try find the words to say something I just couldn't then Rick pulled me in a hug

I'm so sorry Rick i mumbled out

Ash it's not your fault you try everything in your power he tells me then we both pulled away

Where's Ellie he asked

Two down to the trailer I told him

Thanks he said Rick walks off seeing Ellie I walked back fixing the my axe then I see Ellie walking over to me I drop everything i quickly walk over to her she just hug me I was already comforting her

Hey I said rubbing her back then we pulled away from the hug

How are you feeling I asked

Did I passed out she asked

Yeah you fell asleep in the car I told her she nods her head I kiss her head saying that I get her

You want make it something pretty fucking cool I asked she nods her head I hold my hand then I took her I grabbed a handle and the head of the axe I put it together I sharpen it then I grabbed my knife I write it down and pulling a name on it end of the axe then I grabbed a log I chopped it

It's sharp I told her then I give it to her she smiled

It's beautiful she tells me she kiss me on the lips

Your welcome be careful with it alright I told her she nods her head then Maggie walks over to me

She looks happy she said

She does something to make her happy I told Maggie
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I was sleeping then Ellie comes in laying down next to me I turn around to look at her I move a peace of her hair she moves my hands on her wrist then moving me to her we laugh

Hi she said

Hi love I said she moves her head on my chest playing with her head

I miss them you know Dom Glenn Sasha Hershel and  Beth Abraham my mom.... Carl she blurted out I looked at her letting her talking it out

I know I missed them too I said

Abraham would be here to help she tells me I nodded my head

Yeah I said then I heard a knock I get up opening the door seeing Cameron Cody Dakota

Hey how can I help you I said

Ash can I talk to you Dakota asked

Cameron Cody go inside i told them Cameron Cody went inside i closed the door I looked at her

I don't expect you to accept my apology but what I'm saying is I am sorry for what I did to you at the sanctuary. My sister put me through that and I know you never deserved it because I put you through it. I'm hoping we can forget each other, you know I was desperate to be your friend but I have no idea of being your friend so I'm just I'm just hoping you can accept my apology. I was pretty stubborn. I was really dumb back then I didn't know how to shoot a gun but when I left I realised for what I've done my sister stayed back. I was not thinking but when I met Cameron Cody Travis they all realise I knew I was sorry. They understood why that's why I was trying to talk to you and I'm really am. I am hoping you can forgive me. I met Ellie and I had a little talk to her. She she understands, but I just want you to understand that I'm sorry. She tells me

I accept your apology. Let's just take baby steps and see how it goes. I didn't like your sister back then. But seeing you right now, I think you're pretty cool. I told her Dakota smiled

I told Travis that I'm so glad I left the sanctuary. Maggie sort of understood but she's cool. She tells me

Right now, we're at war and once everything is done, you can come back there before Alexandria. I just need to talk it out with Cody Ellie and travis but right now get some rest once everything is done I'll talk about you moving in with us I told her

I like that, thanks Ash she said

Of course have a good night I told her i opened the door then closed it

You guys good now? Cody asked

We're good. Talk things out once this is over. Cody Travis. I was thinking you guys wanna head back to Alexandria and move in with us. Cody would be a fresh start but it will be a fresh start for you guys. I asked

Once everything is done?? Cody asked

Yeah once everything is war but I need to talk it with my lady I told her

Me and Cody would love that Travis told me

Alright, I'll talk to her and I'll see what she says I said

Talk about it in the morning Cody said then Cody and Travis gets up heading to the door then I went to the room laying down next to her

You and Dakota Good? Ellie asked

Yeah, we're good. I had a talk with three of them Cody travis and Dakota once everything is done with Negan I want to move back to Alexandria and take them with us I told her then she snuggles up to my chest

My only teddy bear she told me I smiled

Happy to be one I told her then we both fall asleep