Hold on

How it's gotta be

It was nighttime I was inside then I heard cars I went out i see Negan and his group

Okeydokey he said in the microphone walking up to the gate

Brought this on yourself Rick see was willing to work with you all you had to do was follow a few very simple rules now well now I see you that you got to go he continue scorched earth you dick he called out

He's not home Carl told him his group hold them guns up towards us

But we are I told him

Oh-Ho holy shit everybody hold your fire it's Carl and ash look at you both answering the door like a big boy and big girl I am so proud daddy's not home huh? Well I guess he's gonna get back to a big old smoky surprise-

There's families in here I told him

Kids my little sister Carl told him

Well that shit just breaks my heart there's kids at the sanctuary you must've seen 'em even had a little baby at one of the outposts I wonder what happened to her Negan asked then he puts the microphone down and looks at us

None of this shit's fair kid hell you both know that including you ask you had to kill both of your own mothers that is screwed up ergo we need someone in charge who's willing to do whatever it takes to make sure that shit doesn't happen he continues.

Oh wait that's me he said

Bed stuff happen we can figure this out. We can stop this. Carl told him

Oh now you want to talk? See your dad had it that I died no matter what he gave my people a choice not me-

What about me I speak up Negan looks at me

We gave you a chance, but you decided to leave just like you wanna leave here? Is it true that one of my man shot you in the eye? He asked me

You damn fucking right you know the funniest part when I know you're alive two of my friends and my fiancé left. We don't wanna deal with it. I sure as hell I don't want to deal with this fucking war. you killed Glenn you killed Spencer. shit you even killed Abraham you were like a figure father to me when I was down and out you were there when I couldn't deal with the bullies there you taught me how to shoot a gun and now you doing this and I'm finding out you did that. You're out of your goddamn fucking mind I left and I got shot. I got shot. I know I'm alive with one eye. You know it's not the only time my eyes socket has been playing up. It's been playing up since I got bashed by one of your man and one of your man is standing there looking at me like he wants to do it and I know I will so I have a deal for you. Bring him in or I'm not gonna even talk if you wanna do your bullshit speech. Be my guess Smith but I want you to know you're not the only person who wants to get killed. Everybody wants to kill you. I hope you know that. I told him

Which one that is sweetheart? Negan asked I pointed to the man next to Negan.

Oh him I might need him but not me now we're gonna need a new understanding apologies punish-

Kill me carl told him I looked at him then he looks at me

I have been bitten he whispered in my ear I looked down trying to hold my emotions walked towards the gate and looks at him

What did you say?

If you have to kill someone if there has to be punishment then kill me carl told him

I'm serious

You wanna die? Negan answer

No I don't but I will it's gonna happen and I—if me dying could stop this if it can make things different- for us for you for all those other kids it'd be worth it I mean was this the plan was it supposed to be this way is this who wanted to be I looked up seeing trucks are moving Negan holding their guns up then we vanished

Son of a bitch ask and Carl was that just a play i thought we were havin' a moment you little assholes bombs away Negan told them the bombs  started exploding we heard them  we were hiding in sewers all of us were hiding in the sewers

Carl when are you biting I asked he lift his shirt up revealing that he was bitten in the chest I looked down i started to cry but Carl holds my hand

Take care of Ellie you have to he tells me then Ellie Rick Michonne comes in I sit up I looked at him my lips are trembling I don't know how to speak or talk shaking knees they all looked at me

R-Rick e-Ellie I-i don't know what to tell you I stutter out

Ask and i brought him Carl told him Michonne Ellie and Rick looked at him Rick knees down to him Car peeled off his Band-Aid I looked down walking away i hear Ellie and Michonne crying too I feel numb

Did I save him enough or did I just fucking fail?