diary of a nobody

Chapter 3

Is mommy gonna go away? These words from Joey made me start to tear up.how could a mom say that . It has to be a lie,I mean what would we do without her,I surely did not want to live with my step dad who is and alcoholic. He hits me. I don't want him to hit Joey.

I don't want Joey to grow up as the kid who scared of everything,as the kid who feels people talking about him behind his back,the kid who grows up so unsure of him self he's scared to even open His eyes in the morning.

I decided that this weekend when u go to my stepdads I'll tell him I'm not going to be able to see him anymore.surely he'll understand he doesn't even like me.

As Im comforting Joey and trying to get all of these thoughts out of mind ,as well as trying to stop crying because I hate crying in front of my brother,I also decide I'll get a job and in one year from now hopefully my mom is still alive, and I'll just live with Joey.that's what I'll do.anything to keep my little brother safe.because I love him.I tell Joey "I love you" and he says "I wuv you too sissy".

I tuck him in bed and read him a story he slowly falls asleep.and then I remember - I still have a date with Ryan!!!I quickly get out of his bed and check the time on my phone 4:46 I have to be there at 5!I try to get something sexy and cute to put on and smack on some more lipstick and mascara , I'm running out the door and the time is 4:58.

luckily his house is only two streets away ,I text him I'll be 5 minutes late had some brother trouble, and start walking toward his house.as I walk in I smell the crisp scent of apple pie,Ryan says come in as I walk to the couch where he is sitting with literally 100 movies for us to watch. I tell him I have to be home at 11 and he says perfect as long as you don't fall asleep.I giggle stupidly at his statement.he tells me to sit down and that he has pie that will be ready in 20 minutes.he picks out a romantic movie and pops it into the movie player.as its playing he puts his arm around me and I slowly lean into his shoulder.he has candles to set the "mood" which smell absolutely amazing.I'm so glad I made it in time to his house.