Ryan and I have a date today at 5 .He's going to pick me up and we are going to go to the park to have a picnic in the dark. Sounds kind of creepy but he said that he decorated the park with lights.
Its currently 3:30 so I decided to start getting ready. Once I got out of the shower I had no idea what to wear. Was this a romantic type thing or a casual type thing? I decided to wear a fancy shirt with plain jeans and a pair of red vans.
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He came to pick me up at exactly 4:48.He was early luckily I started getting ready early so I was putting earrings in when I heard him knock on the door. I knew that tonight I would have to tell him about my mom and about everything.It was going to be hard but it was time. I couldn't keep secrets from the only people had left.
He opened the car door for me and I said thank you and got in. We drove while talking about our favorite music artists .His was pierce the veil and mine was falling in reverse. We both liked the same kind of music so it wasn't awkward. I couldn't even imagine someone like him loving Taylor swift or something.
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We sat down after he ad put a fuzzy blanket down that was a royal blue with brown footballs all over it. Didn't seem very romantic to me, but maybe footballs were in his mind. He got out of the basket he brought 2 turkey sandwiches, 2 oranges,4 waters, and 2 bags of chips. Yea still not very romantic.As we ate I told him I had something very important to tell him. He nodded his head for me to continue so I told him all about my mom and than he stopped eating. He picked me up, and he whispered in my ear I will always be here for you no matter what" and I finally told him" I love you "he responded by giving me a quick kiss on my lips and than sitting down on the ground with me still in his arms and now I was on his lap. I guess you could say we were cuddling.It was cold out side and scars on my wrist turned purple. I haven't hurt myself in a long time ,but Ryan noticed them. He gave me his jacket and I slipped it on, it was so big I could have swam in it. He told me he was sorry that I could have been filled with so much hatred towards myself at one time and I said don't be. We layed there for a long time and I eventually fell asleep on his lap with my head against his chest. Now it was romantic.
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~ AUTHORS NOTE ~
I know these last few chapters were very short. I've been distracted and have a bit of writers block. Please forgive me. Thank you if you've read this far it means a lot to me! Have a nice day and happy reading!
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diary of a nobody
Teen Fictionabout a girl ,her life ,and getting over obstacles with twists and turns along the way.will Mackenzie make it out alive or is she destined for loneliness?
