Miefer Short Stories

But It's Over Now Ending

I decided na iwan muna sila para bigyan ang sarili ko ng time para makapag isip isip. I don't know if things will be the same after what happened. Every time I look at him in the eye, I feel uncomfortable. I also don't feel the same when he's around. 

I exhaled muna bago ako lumuhod para pulutin ang mga shells na nagkalat sa nadadaanan ko. Kumuha rin ako ng mga bato at unti unti itong hinahagis sa dagat na may kasamang pwersa. Sana ganito nalang, if ayaw mo nang balikan ang isang tao o pangyayari ay pwede mo nalang itapon sa malayo para hindi na bumalik. But fudge, 'yon yong naexperience ko when we I was still with him. 

Kanina, I noticed na parang pinupush nila na magkaroon kami ng time alone ni Kiefer but fortunately, parati akong nakakaiwas sa mga ganun. Haaay. I'm trying to act as if everything's okay even though it's not. 

I've had enough of his his shits and fucking reasons. I don't want to be the one left behind. I don't want to be sad, I don't want to feel too much pain. 

Then, I saw a little turtle. Kinuha ko ito and pinagmasdang mabuti. Pansin ko rin na may iba pang maliliit na mga pagong ang gumagapang papuntang dagat. Napaisip ako... Even if shit happens in your life, you need to move on and let go. You need to move on from your past, so you can start a new chapter of your life. We may not know what's going to happen with this next chapter, but at least we'll be facing new surroundings and new happening and that we're not stuck in the past. In addition, I need to be strong also to do the things I want to do. 

Nagflashback ang lahat ng nangyari between me and him. From the very beginning until sa nangyari kanina. Nilagay ko sa tubig na 'yong little turtle and pinakawalan na. Now, I'll let go of the things that had happened in the past. All of the shitty and wonderful  things na nangyari between us. 

I smiled at myself. "Finally." I said to myself.

I took my phone out from my pocket and I texted him. 

To: Kiefer Ravena

I know why you're here and what you're trying to do. But you said it yourself before, ' we're done '. So now, do me a favor, stop trying to fix us 'cause there's no US. Okay? Everything's over now. I'm done with you and your shit. Love, M.

After I hit send, natawa ako. I laughed cause I just realized na I was really stupid for all the crazy things I've done for him. Now, I can finally say... good bye to him and the pain he gave me.... 

Everything between me and him is now over.