𝐁𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐑𝐮𝐧𝐬 𝐃𝐞𝐞𝐩

checking in

enjoy! Another short one- but at least it's out !!

TW

"Whatever" I shrug, rolling my eyes as I turn away from my brothers, inching towards the door. All I want is a quick escape upstairs, and the chance to escape my constant thoughts, to sleep.

I don't fail to notice the smell of the spaghetti cooking on the stove beside me. The fresh, tomato sauce scent lingers as I feel myself getting distracted.

God I hate how much I love food.

Control, that is what I want- no, it's how much I need.

"Sit down, foods nearly ready" Elliot clears his throat, breaking up the tense and uncomfortable silence and walks towards the stove, refusing to make eye contact as he passes me.

"Not hungry. They gave us food after cheer" I mumble, tracing the worktop with my finger.

"Oh yeah, what food?" Nic asks, looking at me skeptically.

"I don't know, some food" I snap, annoyance creeping into my voice. "Like sandwiches and stuff"

"And what was in the sandwiches?" Nate adds on,  eyeing up Nic, assuming the role as interrogator.

My other brothers look at them in confusion, Alex has his head in his hand.

"All sorts! Chicken, ham... regular sandwich stuff. Jesus Christ!" I snap.

"And were they nice?" Nic asks, pressing further.

"Will you just fucking stop?!" I shout, finally reaching my breaking point.

"Bonnie, language!" Alex says, cooly and calmly.

I hold my hands up in mock surrender, "well I'm sorry, he won't stop asking these pointless fucking questions" I raise my voice again.

"Listen to your older brother Bonnie! What has got into you?" Rafe sighs.

"Tell them to stop" I point to the twins, they just look at each other.

"Well I'm sorry- we were just a bit interested to hear about the food you had. I never knew imaginary sandwiches could be so filling?" Nate suggests, shrugging whilst Nic smirks.

Fuck.
I've been caught.

Looking down, I don't answer.

"What?" Alex asks, standing up, raising his eye brow.

"Yup. Bonnie here never had food" Nate says smugly.

"How do you know?" Evan asks, piping in.

"God this is fun" Theo mutters, laughing to himself.

"Anna and some of the other girls on cheer team was talking to me today- at lunch actually. They were moaning about how budget cuts meant they couldn't give food after practice anymore." Nic explains.

This fucking boy. He'd never snitch on me to my brothers- never. 

What's happened? It feels like every relationship I have with my brothers has slipped away.

Theo seems constantly out to get me, as if he revels when I'm told off.

Rafe, Evan and Elliot just watch- whether it be shock or irritation- it's at my behaviour. 

And Alex- the disappointment unmistakable, which cuts the deepest. There's no pride, no warmth, no nothing. He's done, he's fed up with me as his sister.

"Bonnie- are you lying?" He sighs, concern and confusion evident in his voice.

"What? No- no of course I'm not" I stutter, I feel my anxiety build up in my chest.