Fluff & smut oneshots (Frerard, Pikey/Petekey, MCR comfort)

#82 Frerard (fluff)

⚠️MENTION OF SUICIDE, RELAPSE⚠️

Frank's pov

I woke up to my alarm as I groaned. It was my fifth alarm, which usually would have made me awake by then, but I was super tired. I dragged myself out of bed as I turned it off and quickly went to get ready. I didn't even bother to fix my hair or anything as I sleepily made sure I got everything before getting a call from Ray saying he was downstairs. I ruffled with my hair as I slipped my shoes on before throwing all my shit in the back. "Mornin' Frank," "I'm going back to sleep." "Damn, okay." Ray shrugged as I got in the car. I shut my eyes as I curled up in a ball and snuggled up to the very corner of the seat. I tried to go back to sleep knowing damn well I couldn't now that I was nearly fully awake, staring out at the dark sky as we drove a couple miles down to Gerard and Mikey's house. I'd been longing to see him and couldn't help but feel my heart race as we got closer, gosh how much I missed his pretty face. I smiled as Ray told me to call them and tell them to come downstairs, pulling my phone out. I was caught off guard as I realized the amount of missed calls by Gerard, gulping. "Uh, hey Gerard? We're downstairs." "..why'd you wait so long to call me back?" "What do you mean? It's 5:35am. We gotta get to the airport. Let's talk when you get here okay?" I hesitated, slightly confused. There was a long pause before he just said "okay" and hung up.

"Gerard," I called as I rolled down the window. He avoided my gaze as he looked down and just quietly put his stuff in the back. I could see Mikey glancing at him worriedly which just panicked me even more, wondering if I did something wrong. I was going to shift to sit inside when Gerard gently shoved me back down and made his way beside me. Instead of having three seats in the back, Ray's car only had two as he removed one of them in order to hold more equipment. Gerard leaned on our bags and luggage's as Mikey got in the front, and we began our drive. "Gerard..?" I said in a soft voice, my fingers brushing over his as he glazed over at me. His eye bags looked heavier than ever, and the tear stains seemed to speak for themselves. "Why didn't you pick up?" "I'm sorry.. I was sleeping. You know this, it's not easy for me to just wake up like that." "Kay." He mumbled coldly. "Gerard please.. talk to me." "Nothing. Sorry for bothering you." I was going to say something, but held back as he finally cuddled up to me. His sleeves were wet, but we stayed quiet as he closed his eyes and squirmed in the cramped-ass-car to get comfortable. He ended up lying on my lap as he hugged one of my arms, running my fingers through his hair as I watched him drift off to sleep.

-a few days later-

It's been a couple days we've landed in Japan, and we were all taking turns to shower in our hotel. Gerard hasn't been speaking much other than when he's singing, but he also seems more affectionate towards me that it's worrying. He keeps disappearing after shows and at night when we're suppose to be sleeping and started drinking more often. "Frank? Could you help me get my towel from my luggage?" Gerard shouted from the bathroom. "Okay," I replied, not thinking much of it as I unzipped his luggage. I was stunned to see that his luggage was nearly empty. He had a few sets of show clothes and one towel, nothing more. No essentials, no extra layers since incase it was cold, no soaps, nothing. I shut it after a moment of looking around and went to pass him the towel, sitting on his bed while waiting for him to get out. I decided to just look through his pockets while waiting to see if he just shoved all his stuff in there, but it just had his wallet and.. a vape? I could feel my heart drop as I held it in my hand. A strawberry vape.

Just then, I heard the sound of the door unlocking and opening, looking up to see him step out of the shower. "Hey-" he paused as he realized what I was holding. "F-Frank I-" "..Can we talk?" I said in a serious voice. He gulped as he sat down next to me, fidgeting. "Why? Just why? And your luggage? It's basically empty. You've been off this entire time, and you still refuse to tell me about why you spam called me that night. Speak. Now." I demanded. He let out a small sigh as he looked down, "Okay.. fine. I'll admit it. I just.. got really bad that night okay? I relapsed, bad. I was calling you cause I was on the verge of committing. I haven't slept in weeks and the reason I kept disappearing was to buy vapes and drugs, and I have never once stopped thinking about suicide. I just really think that I'll kill myself before I even get back to New Jersey. I wanna stop Frank, I really do. Please.." I stared at him in shock as he bursted into tears, covering his face with his palms. "Hey.. hey don't cry okay? Look at me darling." I crooned as I lifted his chin to face me, removing his hands and placing them on the side. He sniffled as tears streamed down his face, mumbling the same sentence again and again, "please.. I just wanna stop.. Frank, please.." I pulled him into my arms tightly as he sobbed over my shoulder, his voice barely audible. "I know my love, I know. It's okay, just let it all out. It's okay," I kept repeating as I patted his back. I held his trembling body in my arms as I comforted and soothed him, my heart sinking.

He sniffled as he pulled away, wiping his tears. I cupped his face as I pulled him in for a soft kiss, rubbing his cheek with my thumb. "Have you told anyone else about any of this? Ray? Or Mikey?" "No.. but I think I should. It'd be rude of me to just suddenly disappear on them like that with no explanation. Can we go home, Frank?" "Of course. I'll call our manager and tell him, I'm sure he'll understand. I'm gonna be by your side and visit you as much as I can okay?" I smiled. He nodded as he threw his arms around me, tearing up once more, "Thank you for understanding.." "I would rather anything but a dead boyfriend. 'Cause you're not just the love of my life, Gerard. You're my best friend, my everything. And I'll always love you." "I love you too, Frankie."