The Bucket List ; LRH

1. Acceptance

There are five stages of grief:

1. Denial

2. Anger

3. Bargaining

4. Depression

5. Acceptance

I was in the fifth stage. Acceptance. I wasn't in denial anymore, I knew it was real.

I wasn't angry anymore, I had no reason to be.

I wasn't trying to bargain anymore, I had nothing to bargain.

I wasn't depressed. I've been depressed a select few times in my life, but this is the worst it's ever been.

I am now in the stage of acceptance. I have accepted the fact that Caroline is gone. As much as I don't want her to be, I have accepted it.

As I sat in Caroline and I's favorite diner, I couldn't help but let the tears fall down my cheeks as I thought about her. Thinking about how my best friend was gone forever tore my heart into pieces. I could not believe it and at first it didn't feel real, but it was. Man, was it the cold hard truth that my best friend, only eighteen years of age, was dead. It was reality, not the horrible nightmare that I wished it was.

As I numbly drank my coffee that consisted of mostly creamer and sugar, my eyes traveled along the paper that was our summer bucket list. The thirty things Caroline and I were supposed to do, together, before the summer ended. We promised that we would complete each thing on the list and a promise is a promise, so I was going to do it by myself, no matter how hard it was or how long it took.

Even if it took me longer than the summer to complete, I would cross off every single thing on that list. I wasn't only doing it for me, but for Caroline, too. Most of the things on the list were her idea, so I had to do them. I wouldn't feel complete if I had left even one of them off of the list. I had to do all thirty of them and I was going to. I was determined to.

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Short chapter I know, but this is just mainly the introduction. It will get much, much better and some chapters will be v long or short depending on which thing from the bucket list she is completing so I hope you all like it so far bc I think it'll be a really good story probably my favorite I've ever written!!!!