Forever You and I (Lesbian Story - COMPLETED)

PART 1: Chapter 1

Coley

It's been two weeks since the whole ordeal. Since Sonya and I kissed for the first time. We've been spending much more time together, but we've been keeping it on the down low.

Not one soul knows about us, well, except for Trenton. Not even Sam. We haven't gotten around to telling him, because, well, I'm nervous about it. I don't want to hide who I am. Who I'm in love with. But it's not that simple. We live in a judgemental world here. Sonya and I just aren't ready to expose such a big secret yet in fear of being attacked for it.

Mentally and physically.

Not only have I heard stories about religious protestors shunning homosexuals and trashing them publically, but there's been many cases of organized attacks on anyone who dared to defy 'the norm'.

So because of this, Sonya and I are keeping are relationship private. We see each other almost every day, whether it be at her house or mine. We decided not to go out in public together to avoid extra attention on us. People see things and will immediately assume whatever, spreading rumours like a wildfire.

I just wish things would be easier. Summer is almost done, and we both don't know what to do when it is. Both of us decided to take a year off before starting college, much to the chagrin of our parents. They wanted us to go into the Ivy League, following their footsteps, but for me, it's not really my thing. I want to attend college for the arts. I love to sing, dance, draw, photograph and write. I'm incredibly passionate about it all.

Sonya's not too sure what she wants. She's conflicted. She does want to go to school, and take some English courses to become a teacher, but another part of her wishes to go into film. She's incredibly talented with a video camera in her hands. The amount of short-movies she's created in all the years I've known her is amazing. She's definitely got an eye for filmmaking, but her parents are really against it.

I'm taken out of my thoughts when I feel a tug on my hand. I look up, and meet beautiful brown eyes. Sonya smiles at me. We are currently lying on my bed, our backs propped up by a billion pillows with our hands intertwined, and were watching a movie. We seem to be doing that a lot now, since we don't go out much.

"What are you thinking about?" Sonya asks, absentmindedly running her thumb in circles on the skin of my hand.

I sigh, smiling at her. "Just stuff. Mostly about you and I."

"Could you elaborate what you mean?" she laughs.

At this point, the movie is forgotten, and I give Sonya my full attention, thinking about my next words. "It's just... Aren't you tired of hiding? I just want to be able to show you off to the world as my... like, as the one I love. Even with that incessant hate surrounding us. It would be worth it to deal with all that shit if I can just have you in every way possible."

Sonya remains silent for a long moment, processing everything I just said. I just sit here waiting patiently for her response. "I, uh..." she starts. She takes a deep breath, before facing me once more. "I know. At first, I was scared to death. I was terrified of all the hate we'd receive if our relationship would go public. Specifically, I couldn't bear to face my parents' rage. But the more I think about it, I honestly don't even care anymore. I love you. So much. And everything is worth it if it means I get to be with you.

"And to be honest, remember a few days ago when you had fleetingly mentioned that you didn't know what your sexuality is? Well, I don't either. And that's okay. Our sexuality does not define us. We don't need a label to know who we love. I just know that I love you, and that's enough. But for others, it isn't. Once my parents find out about us, I know that they're going to throw me out. And in a way, I'm ready for it, but I'm terrified. It's not that I'm scared that they will know about me, about us, it's the fact that I will lose whatever I ever had as parents. They may be the shittiest parents ever, but it doesn't change the fact that I still love them..." she trails off, looking down.

I don't say anything, waiting for Sonya to be done. "But if that's what they'd be willing to do, then it's a risk I'm willing to take. I love you so much, Coley. You're worth it all, and then some. So yes, I am tired of hiding. I just want to be free."

I swallow the lump that's in my throat. Sonya has such a way with words, her rants like this one always render me speechless or in tears. Usually the both. Like right now. I take a moment to compose myself, looking directly at our entwined fingers, absentmindedly playing with them. I take a breath, before meeting her gaze once more. She looks nervous, afraid that she upset me with her words. That couldn't be farther from the truth. "You... I... Wow, I don't know what to say," I laugh, causing Sonya to smile at me. "I'm happy you feel the same way. About not wanting to hide anymore. And for your parents... I will always be here for you. When you're ready to tell them... I will stand by you. I know how they'll be, but you can't let them faze you. You are stronger than anyone I've ever met. Hell, I know when I'll have to tell my parents, I'll probably crumple under them," I say, nervously biting my lip.

I feel Sonya tilting my chin upwards with her free hand, in order for our eyes to meet. "If you stand by me, I stand by you," she says with certainty, smiling at me. I nod, before leaning in and placing a soft kiss to her lips. I only meant for the kiss to be chaste, but Sonya deepens it, letting go of my hand in order to cup my face with both of hers. I feel her tongue brush against my lower lip, and I allow her access, feeling her explore my mouth. An involuntary moan escapes my mouth, causing Sonya to smirks against my lips.

That's it.

I push her down to the bed, and quickly climb on top of her, effectively straddling her hips. Her hands move to hold them, her eyebrows raised at my sudden courage.

Throughout the last couple of weeks, our kisses have been turning into heated make-out sessions. Can you blame us? We're hormonal teenage girls. Usually, she's the one to initiates everything. But I need to be more courageous. I need to stop being nervous about stuff. First step: be a top.

I smirk at her, leaning down and capturing her lips once more. I feel her moan in my mouth, causing my body to react wildly. Oh God. I'm not ready for this. But damn.

Before things can escalate any further, I pull away, leaning my forehead against hers. "We should... slow things... down," I manage to say in between breaths.

"Ye-ah," Sonya stutters, breathing erratically. We look at each other, before bursting into a fit of giggles. I roll off of her, and immediately cuddle into her side, feeling her arms wrap around me as we keep laughing.

A few more moments pass until our giggles die off, and we're left wondering in the silence. "When are you going to tell your parents?" I ask her, looking up into her eyes from my position.

She sighs, before answering. "When they come back from their trip on Friday... so in two days."

I nod, returning my head on her shoulder. "I'll tell mine on Saturday, then."

"You'll be with me, right?" she asks.

I nod. "Always."

I don't need to look up to know that she's smiling, I can just feel her. "And we should tell Sam. I would feel a whole lot better if someone else knew. And I trust him."

Sonya doesn't say anything. She just pulls me closer to her.

The next few days are going to be really hectic. But I know it'll be worth it.

x x

A/N: HI ALL. I'm sorry for the short chapter AND the long wait, but this is just the set up chapter, I'm planning on making the chapters much longer lol.

SO, how've y'all been doing? I've been doing fantastic. The response I got from 'Girls Like Girls' has been phenomenal and I couldn't ask for better readers. I love you all so much.

Alright, I hope you guys like this first shitty chapter. I've received some questions on whether I should add smut in here. I will only add some of the majority of you guys want it. Either way, if I do add some, it wouln't be incredibly graphic...  Lol

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