Forever You and I (Lesbian Story - COMPLETED)

Chapter 25

Coley

It's a few days until Christmas, and I'm super nervous. I'm not a hundred percent sure why. Well, I am, but I am denying it.

Ever since I thought about Lauren being my girlfriend, my thoughts are consumed by Sonya. It's like I can't be happy. Like my mind doesn't want me to be happy.

Everything lately has been making me think about her. It's driving me crazy.

All I want to do is get over her. Move on with my life. I mean, I'm never going to see her again. I just don't understand why it's so hard to let her go after eight fucking years.

Lauren makes me so happy. I know that. But there's a part of me, in the deepest corner of my mind, that keeps telling me that I cannot live without Sonya. That she's the love of my life.

I close my eyes at the end of the day, right before I go to sleep, and it's not Lauren I'm thinking about.

It's Sonya.

I sigh, slamming my head down against my dining table. I hear a little muffled meow coming from my feet and look towards the sound, smiling at Willow, who's weaving in between my bare feet.

"Yes, little girl, I'm sorry," I reach down and scoop the kitten up in my arms, marveling at the warmth emitting from her tiny body.

I breathe out again. "You know, Willow, love is hard."

She lets out a little meow, as if agreeing with me. This is why I should just get cats.

I put her back down on the floor, and get up from the chair, checking my watch. It's just about time for Lauren to pick me up. Tonight we decided for all the couples to get together and go to the bar. Lauren and I, along with Maddie and Dan, Cara and Allan, and Sam and Dani are all going. It'll be nice. A distraction from my thoughts.

Hopefully.

I grab my bag, and check myself out in the mirror one last time. I dressed casually tonight, with a white long sleeved shirt, some light jeans and combat boots. I threw my leather jacket on, considering it's chilly out.

I make my way out the door, and all the way outside to Lauren's car. I get inside, and smile at the girl sitting behind the wheel.

"Hi babe," Lauren says, leaning over the centre console to give me a sweet kiss. A pang of guilt makes its way through my body. I am dating this amazing girl, and here I am thinking of Sonya.

I feel like shit, but I decide not to dwell on it, and ask her how she's doing. We chat while she drives us to the location, her hand holding mine tightly.

I need to live in the present, and not in the past. I need to start looking towards the future with Lauren, and stop hoping for a future with Sonya, because it won't happen.

She's the one that left me.

Shut up, brain. Just shut up.

We make it to the bar, and once we walk inside, we find that everyone is already there, sitting at a large table. They are talking animatedly amongst themselves. This brings a smile to my face. It's been awhile since we've all gotten together.

Sam looks up from the table, a laugh playing along his lips, and his eyes light up at the sight of me.

"Coley! Lauren! You're here!" He gets up from the table, and rushes over, wrapping his arms around the two of us. Lauren and I giggle at the big bear hug. Sam is such a sweetheart.

He lets us go, and we join the rest f the crew at the table, saying hi to everyone. I settle beside Cara, and Lauren slides in next to me. Maddie is on her right, so they begin to chat, while I turn to my best friend.