Forever You and I (Lesbian Story - COMPLETED)

Chapter 30

Coley

Me: S, please answer

Me: I don't know what happened that night

Me: I really want to see you

I groan loudly as I send three more texts that are surely going to go unanswered. It's been a few days since the Christmas party, and I've been trying to contact Sonya since then. I seriously don't know what happened to her that night. I don't know if she was there and left, or she just never showed up at all. I need answers.

I put my phone down beside me, and look up to the television. I have a movie playing in the background but I'm not paying attention to it. I'm too busy with my thoughts.

It's Saturday today, and I'm bored. Maddie is busy doing errands with Dan all day, Cara is gone to visit her boyfriend's family in Canada, and Lauren is working. It sucks being alone with your thoughts.

I look back at my phone, pressing the home button, and sighing when I see no new texts. I really wish Sonya could just respond to me. There's nothing I want more now than answers.

Willow hops onto the couch beside me, making a little meowing sound. I begin to pet her, returning my attention to the movie. I just need to give it time.

I don't want to begin psychologically analyzing Sonya, but I can tell that she went through something bad. The way her mother implied it, Sonya seems to be having a hard time dealing with whatever it is she went through. And that thought kills me. Sonya was always one to take care of me in our youth, and now I want to do that for her. I want to help her with anything that she might be going through. No matter how dark it gets.

My phone vibrates, and I quickly look at it, a little disappointed when I see that it's just Sam. He's asking if he wants me to come over for dinner tonight. That would be fun, and would help take my mind off of things, so I tell him I'll come.

I know deep down that things will work out with Sonya and I. I just got to give it some time.

x x

Sonya

I run back towards my mom's SUV, slamming the door behind me.

"What's wrong hun? Did you forget something?" my mom asks, worry in her voice.

I shake my head, my throat feeling tight. "I'm not ready."

My mom nods, and puts the car in drive, heading back to our place. I lean my head against the window, my heart racing a million miles an hour. I can't believe I almost saw her. Why didn't I just stay!

"I'm sorry, mom," I say out loud, tears brimming my eyes.

My mom reaches out towards me, placing her warm hand over mine. "Honey, never be sorry. I know this must be hard for you. I'm proud of you for making it this far." I blink hard, the tears falling down my cheek. I look out the window, peering into the side mirror. I see the faint silhouette of a person standing outside in the falling snow.

Coley.

I hate myself so much for this. I made my mom drive out into a snow storm on Christmas to go see the love of my life, but I couldn't do it. The moment I stepped outside and saw the apartment, memories came flooding back.

I broke that girl's heart. I left her without any word, without warning. I'm despicable and rotten. I don't deserve love.

I shake my head, loathing myself. I can't stand the thought of myself.