Life is never quite what we expect it to be. It's far more complex than we often realize. No mere human could ever fully fathom its true meaning. God has granted us life and the freedom to choose how we live it, but what truly matters is what we do with that gift. Life, though a precious blessing, can also be taken away in an instant. It brings with it both immense expectations and inevitable disappointments, leaving us uncertain of what the next moment will bring. Yet, within life, there is darkness and it is only through both light and dark that life truly finds its balance. Without one, the other could never exist as it was meant to.
Ever since that day, everything felt different. I locked myself away in my room, isolating myself from everyone, not wanting to eat, not wanting to see anyone. Abbie tried to visit, but I refused to meet her. I just needed to be alone. I knew Nannu had told her what happened, and I could feel her concern. Pushing everyone away hurt, but I was hurting too, and I needed space to process. I wanted to reach out to Jason, so badly, but I didn't want to burden him with my mess. I was sure Abbie would tell him, but I couldn't bring myself to say anything.
One morning, I finally came out of my room. The sight of Abbie sleeping on the couch, wrapped in a blanket that dragged on the floor, hit me harder than I expected. She'd been staying here for days, trying to comfort me, but I could see how much I'd worried her. Quietly, I went over to cover her properly, and she woke up with a start.
"Novia? Is that you?" she mumbled, blinking, trying to focus on me.
"Yeah, it's me," I whispered, my voice hoarse from not talking, eating or drinking. She sat up, eyes full of concern.
"Are you okay?" she asked softly, pulling me to sit beside her. I wasn't okay, but I had to pretend. I nodded and gave her a weak smile.
"Would you like something to eat?" she asked gently.
"I'm fine," I replied, my voice barely above a whisper.
"Really?" she said, worry lacing her voice. "You haven't eaten anything for days."
"I'll just have some water," I said, trying to stand. But as soon as I got up, a wave of dizziness hit me, my body telling me I was reaching my limit. Abbie rushed over just in time, catching me before I could fall.
"Are you sure you're okay?" she asked, her grip tightening around me.
"Yeah," I muttered, feeling weak. "I think I need to lie down."
"Let me help you to your room," she said, guiding me back to my bed. She made me lie down and promised to bring me something to eat. As she left, the cold crept in again, wrapping around me like an unshakable darkness. It was like being trapped in a cellar with no windows or doors, the walls closing in tighter the more I struggled to escape.
Abbie returned with a tray of food: water, juice, bread with jam. She set it on my lap and gently urged me to sit up.
"Drink the water first," she said softly. "It'll help settle your stomach."
I took a small sip, then another, before reaching for the bread. The cold juice cooled the heat in my body, but it couldn't chase away the chill in my soul. Abbie watched me closely, then placed her hand on my forehead.
"Novia," she said, worry filling her voice. "You've got a fever."
"I'm fine" I said and finished the bread and handed her the tray, trying to lie back down, but she wasn't having it.
"No, you're not okay," she insisted, her voice firm. "I'll get Nannu for some medicine."
I closed my eyes, hoping to sleep the pain away, but I heard someone else enter. The familiar sound of footsteps stopped next to my bed.
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Ungullible
Genel Kurgu"Why should people be deceived?, why can't everyone just be satisfied with one thing ?, is it necessary to be what everyone likes or what everyone wants ? I'm tired of this and I won't let that be me. Novia Adams is a God-fearing girl that has had...
