When Nightmares Become Reality

Chapter 11

I screamed at the top of my lungs. I know it's pointless, but it was all I could do. The person turned me around, still having their arms wrapped around my waist. I pounded my hands on there chest. I felt tears streaming down my face. This is it, I'm done. I don't have any energy. I am exhausted. All I can do is what I am doing, bang my fists into them until they let go. The hands left my waist and grabbed my arms.

"Elena," a familiar voice said, "Elena, shh. Calm down. It's okay. It's me Jeremy. I'm not going to hurt you. Calm down." I opened my teary eyes and through my blurred vision I saw Jeremy's angelic face. The second I saw his face I wrapped my arms around him. I sobbed into his chest letting out all my tears. I hate crying, especially around people, but here lately that's all I have been doing. He wrapped one arm around me and the other rubbed my back soothingly. I'm not sure how long we stood there, but once my crying calmed down enough he started talking.

"Elena," he said calmingly, "baby girl, I need you to tell me what happened."

"They took Sam and one guy vanished with her," I tried not to cry more saying this. I took a deep breath to try and steady myself, but it didn't help. "and I killed a man or vampire or whatever he was. I didn't even save Sam, just myself," I finished in a whisper. My eyes were staring at the ground. I still hated myself for it. Whether he was trying to kidnap me or not killing somebody isn't right and even worse I found it thrilling. To add to the guilt of that, I wasn't even able to help my own twin. I quickly told him all the details starting from the dinner to now. I started crying more at the end. I still couldn't even bring my eyes up to look at him.

"Hey, look at me," Jeremy sweetly told me. He placed his hand under my chin and carefully pulled my head up to look at him. "Baby girl it wasn't your fault. I'm proud of you. You fought back and defended yourself. I know you don't see it that way but you did. I know you wish you could've helped Sam but you couldn't and it's okay," he tried to soothe me, but I didn't want to listen. I killed a guy and Sam is gone. I'm a horrible person.

"I'm sorry for leaving school and you earlier. I never thought this would happen. It's all my fault," I mumbled. I couldn't help but feel guilty. At least Emily is fine, wait is she? "Is Emily okay? What happened to her," I started to panic. If she was hurt then that's it, I would officially completely go into full on self hatred.

"Emily is fine. She is at your house with Chris," he let out a frustrated sigh, "Elena, I'm worried about you. A minute ago I found you about to collapse and you broke out into tears. Now you are completely fine and worried about everybody else."

"I wasn't crying for myself you idiot. I was worried about Sam and the guy I just killed. I'm sorry about the crying I'm just tired. To be honest I don't know why I'm crying so much," I said composed but to be truthful I sounded like a zombie talking. There was no emotion behind anything I said it was just a words in a monotone voice. I Smiled quickly and let out a small laugh hoping he wouldn't worry anymore. He saw right through me, though.

"Elena," he started talking but I held my hand up.

"Don't even start. No more worrying. Do you understand me? We need to go home sleep and then start looking for Sam." I couldn't tell what he was thinking but he wasn't arguing anymore. He probably thought I was crazy. One minute I was having a meltdown and now I was fine. Even I thought I was crazy.

We walked for a while holding hands. We walked silently. It wasn't an awkward silence. It was actually very peaceful. I had so much to think about and yet I can't even attempt to. My mind was completely dead at this point. My eyes were fighting to stay open. I felt my eyes slowly closing. I tried to open them again but I couldn't. I was barely awake, when I could feel myself falling to the ground. My legs turned to jelly. Instead of hitting the ground, I felt Jeremy pick me up. Knowing I was safe in his arms, I let sleep overcome me. Besides, I couldn't even open my eyes, anyways.