By shadow and light,empower our inner light (an Aru shah Au)

End my suffering 🥲😭

Nope not new chapter just me
Trying to survive the war

For three weeks,

I've been in the front lines of the school, trying to battle my way through numerous exam questions that are hard as hell.
Trick question are like land mines on the open battle field, threatening to blow my brain up into smithereens should I dare to choose a wrong answer.
Many of my dear fellow comrades have fallen, their blood, sweat and tears spilled all over the ground, wasted their hard work and knowledge over this god-damned conflict.

For all of us, only one thing is in our mind.

The target.

To get to the other side.
To rise up in the ranks.
To be number one.

And yet no one cares about one another.

This is the real world.

Why care about one another, when you can just focus on yourself?

...

A tragedy.

They once said that schools is a haven for youngsters like us, where we would learn to care for each other, to make friends, to learn all sorts of new and fun things about our world.

I scanned across the blood-stained battlefield in front of me.

Where is the "care" they've promised?
Where are the "friends" I've been promised to have?
Where are the "new and fun things" for me to learn?

Nothing but lies...

NOTHING...but lies they feed us...

My classmates, once friends now enemies.
Standing by themselves, no one by their side.
We faced off, only one will be the sole survivor.

I had no choice.

With all my knowledge twisted into a great sword, I savagely cut through the crowd like it was made of cream cheese.

How many?Friends or strangers? I do not know.

After never-ending days of mindless slaughter, I've reached a dead end. They had surrounded me.

I've been outnumbered by ten to one.

I refuse to back down, only for my sword to be destroyed in a single blow by a stronger opponent with more knowledge than me.

I fell to the ground. They were closing in.

I watched as memories flashed through my mind.

Good ones, bad ones, no matter.

Guess this is the end huh?

I, of course am also wounded, both physically and mentally.For today marks the last three days of my final exam for this year's semester.

Time flies by, doesn't it?

Despite knowing that I'm fucked and I WILL fail my physics exam, my Mother-tongue exam and maybe three more, I still stand strong.

For the rise of dawn.
For the first sunlight to hit the earth.
For the 2-3 month holiday that awaits for me soon.
For my future.
For me to quit whining and study harder so after the exam I can finally go back to finishing this cursed book and further destroying my brain cells.

Patience, dear reader.

THREE MORE DAYS TILL I'M FREE FROM THIS FUCKING HELLHOLE

*emotional damage*

And yet, as my own blood seeped into the dark brown soil like roots into the ground, as I slowly close my eyes as I feel my soul leave my body.

I ask myself : was all this worth it? was all this necessary?

I may never know the answer

But you? Perhaps you would know.

For now, I draw my last breath.

Would I rest in peace? I don't know

Abby😈