We Need Each Other

Cameron Faye Smith

I'm 20 years old & my life has been everything but great. I mean I've had some great times but the bad outweighs the good.

My daddy has been the biggest drug lord in Atlanta from the time he was 18 years old & my mother has been by his side through it all. They met when they were 10, she had me & my twin when she was 16. Then Dre when she was 18. She was a waitress & he was a dope boy. The perfect love story.

When I was young I fell in love with a boy named Shawn, everything was fine until Shawn became well known because of his unstoppable basketball streak. Always made the most points & the winning shot. Girls loved him but he wanted me. Girls hated that so they started throwing themselves at him & him being weak he let them & our relationship was over.

I was always Daddy's favorite. But one night my daddy got drunk & molested my twin sister Cassandra.

That night haunts me every day. She cried out for me and begged him to stop but I didn't help & he didn't stop. I hated him every since then.

Cass moved out that week with a girl friend who was 17. They moved to California & Cass never looked back. My mom sends her money all the time.

When I was 19, I'm saying that like it was forever ago lol. I met this boy Trent Rayshawn Martin. He lives a certain lifestyle I'm not too very fond of but I can't tell a man how to live his life. I love Trent with every single fiber of my being. Yes Tre has cheated but I know he loves me.

I recently lost our child due to impact in a car accident. I was almost to full term, just a couple more weeks but Carter didn't survive & neither did Shawn. I never really recovered from that mentally. I think about it everyday, everyone else is living their lives like nothing happened but I am torn up inside & I have no idea how to deal with it.

I am pregnant again. A couple weeks, barely showing & I'm determined to give birth to a healthy child. I want to give my child everything he/she could ever want. I just want to be a great mother.