Aapki Ardhangini

45. Wish to die

I am here with another exiting chapter. I hope you all will enjoy and can feel the feeling of my Ragini. How tough this situation is for her.

Happy reading ❤️♥️

Ragini's POV
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I am standing near the window of the palace constantly looking at the direction of Trishoolgarh. Cold breeze making my hairs flying here to there as the braid got very loose. The smell of some flowers are travelling through my nostrils.Since the moment he departed from the kingdom, my heartbeat has known no rest. I had never wished to take up arms against him, but fate has seen fit to place my life in the balance, leaving me no choice but to confront the challenges ahead. I have sent the letter to my father about this war. I have shown the trust on him about the whole issue. I have said that i know he can't do anything like this But he not even came to say anything to me.

Ever since he declared war and departed, the entire palace has been thrown into turmoil, with chaos and uncertainty reigning supreme. But I can say with conviction that the storm raging within these walls, or even within the hearts of these people, is nothing compared to the tempest that rages within me.

But the problem is the way i am standing and behaving like nothing is going to happend is more dangerous. I look at battlefield where is war will take place. My senses start imagining him with his large army.

I closed my eyes for a moment and sighed.

The stillness of my solitude was abruptly broken by the tinkling sound of anklets, a sudden intrusion that shattered the silence. Still, I remained frozen, too caught up in my thoughts to even turn and see who had disturbed my peace.

"Ragini...."

It is the moment when i have to shatter my all the thoughts and have a small talk with whoever this is.

I did not turn but by the sound of heavy anklets. I realised it is my mother without having a look.

"Ji...."

"I've learned you want to fight against Rana Sa on our side in this war. But I advise you not to...it's against our principles."

Again...again she came to tell me about the principles, i am already fed up by all this, but i am so broken that i don't even want to explain anything. And even that is better if i will try to explain my decision to anybody nobody will understand that what is going in my mind.

I parted my lips which got little struck to each other as i have not said a single word since he left. And it is late evening. So anybody got understand how tough it feels to say the first word after hours.

"Aapke aur humare dharam bahut alg hai Maa saa, hum apne dharam aapko nahi sikha sakte aur ap apne dharan hum kabhi nhi sikha sakti to aap chale jaiye hum ekele rehna chahte hai"

"Our values and principles are too disparate, Mother. It's clear we can't find common ground. You should go. I'm content with solitude."

"What past misdeed has Mother Bhawani punished us for by bestowing upon us a child like you ?"

Her words pierced my heart..i have nothing to say in answer.i am speechless now. I am tired of being called a bad child but in return i always tried my best but i just closed my eyes and sighed.

" Queen please leave"

She stamped her feet on the ground and left my space. With each footstep of her, her anklets jiggling sound faded away.

Just as i was slipping back itni the darkness of my thoughts, Kusum's voice brought me back.

"Maaf karna par In logo ke liye apne pati ke virudh khadi hogyi hui hain aap...jin logo ke liye aap kuch bhi nahi...pran tyagne ki vyakul hui bhi hain to inke liye Ragini...."