Tough Chance, Kid

Strength

*Time Lapse- January 29th*
I looked at my alarm clock and it was 7:04. Today's Thursday. At 7:05, my alarm went off. I sighed and got up. I pulled on a pair of skinny jeans, a long sleeve t-shirt and a hoodie, then a pair of Vans. I grabbed my phone and left my room. I went downstairs and mom smiled. "Good morning." She said. I nodded. "Are you hungry?" She asked. I shook my head no and she nodded. "Ruby will be here at 7:30." She said. I looked at the clock on the microwave and it said 7:20. I nodded again and sat down at the kitchen table. "They're going to take you to therapy after school, then go hang out and do something." She said. "Okay." I said. She smiled. "I love you Regina." She said. I nodded. "I love you too mom." I said. She smiled again and continued doing whatever she was doing. I got out my phone and went to Periscope. Emma's live right now. It's titled 4 am blues. I clicked on it and it opened. "Welcome to Regina.Mills0201 who just joined us." My eyes went wide as she said my username. "Oh! I talked to you on YouTube." She said. I smiled and started typing. Yeah! You did! I love you! I sent. She smiled. "I love you too!" She said. I smiled like an idiot. I looked at the count of people in the session and there are only 2 other people. You're so lucky Regina! She's noticed you! EmmaSwanLover35 said. I smiled. "I notice all my fans. I just don't get to talk to all of them." Emma said. I smiled. Then, I noticed I was the only person in the session. "Who's left?" Emma asked. I smiled and sent back that it was me. "Regina, if you live in Maine, that means it's 7:25 there. So, do you not have school?" She asked. I smiled. I do. But I don't leave until 7:30. I sent. "Oh cool." She said. "Well, goodbye Regina. I hope you have a good day! Remember, I love you! Stay strong!" She said, then ended the session. My eyes went wide. Emma Swan just said she loves me. I smiled, brightly. Then, I remembered what I had done on the 18th. I cringed and felt the pain in my wrist still. I had made really deep cuts and they're still not healed. I looked at the clock and it said 7:30. I got up and got my bookbag, then went outside. Ruby's red mustang is in the driveway. I walked to her car and got in. "Morning Gina. Are you okay today?" She asked and drove off. "I'm better than okay. Emma Swan said she loves me and told me to stay strong. I'm amazing." I said and smiled. "Dude! What?!" Belle shouted. I smiled. "She was doing a periscope and welcomed me when I entered and i was the only one on it towards it and she was talking to me. So, at the end she told me to have a good day and said she loves me and for me to stay strong." I said. they smiled. "That's great Reg." Ruby said. I smiled and nodded. "Today will be great if I can make it through the day and dodge Robin and Neal and them." I said. They nodded and Ruby parked at the school.

I ran in the house, up the stairs and to my room. My tears are streaming down my face uncontrollably. Ruby and Belle took me to therapy, then after therapy we went to the mall. We got there at 5 o'clock. Of course, Killian and his asshole friends were there. "Regina? Come on. You know it's not true." Ruby said. I flopped on my bed and sobbed into my pillow. Emma Swan would never notice you. You're a worthless piece of shit. No one ever loved you and no one ever will. His words kept repeating in my mind over and over again. I got on periscope and went to Emma's account. I went to her recents and pulled up the one from this morning. It's only 15 minutes long. 23,000 people have watched it now. I watched it over and over again, listening to her telling me she loved me and to stay strong. Why am I even alive anymore?

*Emma's POV*
"I don't know Cara. She just seems different. Different from everyone else." I said. Cara laughed and sprawled out in the middle of my couch. "You totally have the hots for her!" She shouted. I laughed. "Well, I mean, she's kinda hot." I said. She smiled. "I knew it." She said. I shook my head and laughed. "She's live on periscope right now! Come on!" I said and patted the spot beside me on the sectional. She got up and came and sat beside me. I opened the session and there she was. I furrowed my eyebrows as I saw the tears staining her cheeks and the title was 'goodbye'. "I can't do this anymore." She mumbled in a broken voice. "No!" I shouted and quickly started typing. Love! No! This isn't the answer! Please! I sent and felt my heart pounding. Her eyes went wide as she read the comment. "E-Emma.... You're on this?" She asked. I typed yes and she looked away. "She was gonna kill herself?" Cara asked. I sighed. "I-i guess." I stuttered. Shoot me a dm on Twitter. Please. I sent and Cara sighed as the session was ended. I got on Twitter and quickly followed her. I got a dm almost immediately.
Hi
Hey.. You weren't going to kill yourself.. Were you?
Uh... I.. I was...
Why?!
At school.. These guys... They were saying you would never notice me because I'm a worthless piece of shit and that no one ever loved me and no one ever will.
They're wrong. You're not worthless. You're priceless. Your life is so precious. And I already noticed you. And I love you. And your friends and mom.
Yeah.. I guess you're right..
Please love, don't harm yourself.
I'll try...
No. Please. Promise me.
I promise.
Promise what?
I promise I won't harm myself.
Or?
Or kill myself.
Good. I love you. And so does Cara.
Yeah.. She just followed me on here too.. Both of my idols follow me now.
We're here for you if you ever need anything or if you ever want to hurt yourself. Dm either of us. We're almost always together.
Okay.. I have to go eat with my mom.
Okay. Be safe.
I sighed when she didn't answer and Cara looked at me. "You love her more than just in the fan way." She said. I sighed again. "I don't know. I just... Feel connected to her." I said. Cara smiled. "What are you going to tell Olivia?" She said. "Nothing. Olivia is my girlfriend. Regina is a fan. She lives across the country for Fucks sake. Liv doesn't have to know." I said. She raised an eyebrow. "You have feelings for Regina." She said. I sighed. "Yeah. But, Regina isn't even 18 yet. And she's probably straight anyways. She's a fan." I said. Cara rolled her eyes and looked away. It's not like I'm in love with her. I'm not in love with her right?