Tough Chance, Kid

Wait For Me

March and April came and went, now it's the middle of May. The 15th to be exact. I'm about as famous as Emma now. Simply because of Emma. The paparazzi got several pictures of us on the motorcycle and at the tattoo parlor. I've been contacted about modeling, but I don't want to. Emma's been gone since April 15th. She won't be back until July 15th. That's right. She's on a 3 month tour. I miss her so fucking much. We hardly get to talk. She's just so busy. School sucks. People are always talking about me. But, it's only because I'm with Emma. People talk shit about me, just about as much as people talk about how lucky I am. It's ridiculous. And almost as bad as back home. I have one friend named Ashley. She's pretty nice. I walked into my first block and sat down. "Good morning Regina." A girl named Kc said and smiled. "Morning." I said. Today I'm wearing jean shorts, a tribal print tank top and silver Jack Rogers. My hair is straightened. I got out my stuff and sighed. "Hey. Do you have a pen I can borrow?" The girl in front of me, Alec, asked. "Yeah." I said and got out a pen. I handed it to her and she smiled. "Thanks Regina." She said. I smiled and nodded. "Hey Regina. When's Emma coming back?" A guy named Will asked. "July 15th." I said. He nodded. "How are you staying away from her for another 2 months?" Alec asked. I sighed. "Honestly? It's hard. But, we make it work." I said.

When lunch came around, I got food and looked awkwardly for a seat. I went outside and looked around. "Hey, Regina. You can sit with me." Alec said. I smiled. "Thanks." I said, then sat across from her. I picked around at my food and drank some of my Gatorade, but I left most of my lunch untouched. "You okay?" Alec asked. I sighed. "Yeah. I just.. Miss Emma." I said. She nodded. "Well, not eating isn't going to bring her back." She said. I sighed. "I know. I just... I'm not very hungry lately." I said and leaned against my hand. I got out my phone and saw I had a text from Emma. Today's Friday and I've never been happier for a Friday.
Hey love! I hope you're having a good day at school. I'm in Chicago tonight. I really miss you Gina. Call me when you leave school, yeah?
I smiled and bit my lip a little.
Hi dear. I am. Awesome! I really miss you too. Of course I'll call you.
The bell rang, so I put my phone away. I threw the rest of my lunch away and Alec frowned. "I'll see you later." She said. I nodded.

At the end of the day, it was so nice to just leave. I'm walking home today, simply because I don't wanna bum off rides from Cara all the time. I have my license, but I don't like driving a lot. I grabbed my phone and adjusted my bookbag, then started walking home. I called Emma and smiled when she answered. "Hello love of my life." "Hello love." "How was school?" "Hell. How was preparing for your show." "Hell." "Really?" "Yeah. Alice's family lives here and they're coming to the show and she's so nervous she's throwing up." "Gross." "Yeah." "Well, how are you?" "I'm okay. I'm really tired. But, I'm about to post another video. Go watch it baby. Then, call me back. Okay?" "Okay. I love you." "I love you too." She hung up and I went in the house. I went to mine and Emma's room and got out my computer. I pulled up YouTube and saw Emma's new video. I opened it and smiled, seeing her. "Hey guys. So, this is a new song. It's called Miles Away. I hope you guys like it." She said and started playing her guitar. "I pack my bags and say goodbye to my love for what seems like the millionth time.
They said it gets easier, but they lied. She looks at me and says, 'Really, baby, I will be just fine,'
But then she looks away so I don't have to see her cry. And that is when I ask myself:

How am I supposed to be everything they expect me to be when I feel so alone, 'cause I left my heart at home?
She needs me, but I know they need me too. So, God, give me the strength to do what you created me to do.

Really, I'm so thankful for the people I meet, the places I've been and the things I've seen, but when she's not here it doesn't feel like I'm living my dream. I know they say that no one is perfect, but I swear she's perfect for me and that makes it so much harder to leave.