Tough Chance, Kid

Loss

*Emma's POV*
6 years later, on our anniversary, instead of celebrating, we were in a hospital room. Mary Margret, Maria, Belle, Ruby, Mulan and Henry are all here. Then our adopted son, Jared, who's 13, and daughter, Maggie, who's 8, are here as well. I'm sitting beside Regina's bed, holding her hand. "Can I have a minute alone with Regina? Please?" I asked, my voice cracking. Mary Margret nodded and everyone left. "Emma.. You know I'm dying." She whispered. I shook my head and my tears fell free. "You can't die. I need you, baby." I said, my voice cracking. "Baby.. T-there's nothing else they can do." She rasped out. "Don't give up! They might get someone for the transplants baby. Be positive." I cried. She nodded and coughed a little. Last year, Regina was diagnosed with an extremely rare cancer. And now, it's basically eating away at her kidneys, her pancreas and her stomach lining. So, it'll kill her unless they get a transplant for one kidney, a pancreas and cells to put into her stomach to repair the lining. "My love.. I need you. Please don't give up." I whispered. She sighed. "I'm doing my best." She said, squeezing my hand. I nodded.
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February 21st
We're home and Regina is doing as well as she can.
I stopped writing and bit my lip. I've written several songs currently about and for Regina. I'm not making as much music these days, but these songs.. I got up and grabbed my guitar, then my laptop. I opened it and started recording. "Hey guys.. So, this is a new song... It's called Heaven. I.. I don't know if all of you know, but my wife Regina... She has a really rare form of cancer.. And these songs are for her. Here goes the first one. Let me know what you think. This is Heaven." I said, then started playing. "Oh thinkin' about all our younger years
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free
Now nothing can take you away from me
We've been down that road before
But that's over now
You keep me comin' back for more

And baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

Oh once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world around
Bring you up when you're feelin' down
Now nothin' can change what you mean to me
Oh there's lots that I could say
But just hold me now
'Cause our love will light the way

And baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

I've been waitin' for so long
For somethin' to arrive
For love to come along

Now our dreams are comin' true
Through the good times and the bad
I'll be standin' there by you, oh!

And baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven

And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven, heaven
Whoa, oh, oh!

You're all that I want
You're all that I need

We're in heaven
We're in heaven
We're in heaven." I finished singing and there were tears falling from my eyes. I uploaded the video to YouTube, then started recording again. "This song is called Carousel. Hope you like it." I mumbled, then started playing. "I would have loved to see you grow old, friend
I would have loved to know you 'till the end
I would have loved to see you smile again
I would have loved to watch you turn grey
I would have loved to have just one more day
But all I know is that you've gone away
But I, I swear that I can hear you say 'Don't worry, don't be sad
Think of the time we had'
There is no future or past
And life is not meant to last
Life is crucial surgery
A shard of glass pulled from a heart that bleeds
And sometimes like a barroom fight
So keep throwing punches 'till you get it right
Life is like a carousel
It'll make you dizzy
It will spin like hell
Life is a clear blue stream
It's everything you mean
Yet nothing but a dream
Where things are not quite like they seem
And when you get it, that's when
You'll see me again
When you get it, that's when
You'll see me again." I finished this song with tears on my cheeks and I uploaded the video. I went downstairs to see Regina smiling and laughing with Jared and Maggie. Then, I got an idea. "Regina.. Can I talk to you? Alone?" I asked. She looked at me and furrowed her eyebrows but nodded and got up. We went to the back patio and she crossed her arms, shivering a little. I took off my sweater and handed it to her. She smiled and pulled it around her. I grabbed her hands in mine and held them. "I'm going to be your donor." I mumbled. Her eyes went wide and she shook her head. "No. Emma, those surgeries are too dangerous." She said. I shook my head. "I made my choice. I'm doing it. If I die, at least you'll live. And I'll be helping you and knowing that I did something. Please. Let me do this." I said, my voice cracking. She pulled me to her and kissed me passionately. "Gods I love you." She cried against my lips. I wrapped my arms around her small form tightly and she tangled her hands in my hair.
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March 1st. We're in the hospital. And this time, not for Regina. I'm not even going to lie. I am scared. But, if I die, at least I'll have helped Regina. That's all I want. I laid in the hospital bed and Regina held my hand. "Alright. We ready?" A doctor came in, smiling. "Totally." I said, squeezing Regina's hand. They're taking one of my kidneys and some of the cells from my stomach to repair her stomach lining. Sure, there are a ton of dangers. But, it'll be worth it. Regina leaned over and kissed me passionately, then the doctors began my anesthesia. "I love you. No matter what happens. I will always love you. This is a love for a lifetime." I started, my words beginning to slur together. "I will always love you." I mumbled. She nodded, kissing me again, then it all went dark. Here we go.