Too Powerful? [COMPLETED!]

18- Chocolate Milk Brown

Alex:

"Concentrate, Alex! Concentrate! Bring out your worst memories, feel them flooding through your veins... Let them engulf you!"

I gritted my teeth, trying to concentrate on tuning Scott out. Honestly, if it wasn't for him being a very good friend of mine, and the fact that he was trying his upmost best to help me, I would have yelled at him to shut up.

This was Week 2 of classes. So far, nothing had happened. It was as though I had no powers at all. No matter how much Scott egged me on, no matter how much Rogue pleaded with me, I just wasn't able to relive the haunting memories; hence, nothing had happened.

Okay, to be honest, it wasn't because I couldn't relive the memories. It was because I didn't want to. I was just too scared. Terrified, even. Of the scenes that I would have to relive, of the emotions I would have to experience again... Of how I would feel afterwards. And what if this time, my powers got the better of me? Like I said, I have no idea how I managed to do it the other day, controlling my feelings or not.

Scott sighed, pulling me back into reality. Rogue was out on a date with Bobby, so it was just Scott and I out in the great big school grounds. No one was around; mutants were funny like that. Despite the day being warm and nice, they were all crowded in the basement of the school; apparently, Storm had perfected her ability of creating hurricanes even in buildings.

Yeah, I know, go figure.

Anyway, like I said, it was just Scott and I here. Scott was wearing a green sweater, which, in my opinion, suited him perfectly. His hair was messy, as usual, and he was staring at me intently. My breath caught; Scott could be extremely good looking when he wanted to, and when I let my guard down. I tried to imagine him without his goggles. What colour were his eyes? He had never told me, so I tried to imagine them being the brightest of blue. Nope, it didn't fit his colouring. Hazel then. Oo la la, he could seriously be a babe! How come I had never noticed this before? Properly noticed, I mean.

Scott's lips parted to speak, but I beated him to it, blurting out my question without pausing to think about how it would sound.

"What colour are your eyes? Do you even know how they look like? Have you ever seen them?"

Scott closed his mouth, and gave me a crooked smile. My stomach clenched and I blushed, realizing how love-struck-teenager-ish I sounded. Scott must have seen by embarrassed expression, for he gave a loud chuckle and ran his fingers through his hair. His smile was huge, and it lighted up his whole face. I blushed even more.

"It's brown, Alex. Not as dark as yours, but a very light shade of brown. My mother used to say that it was because she used to eat loads of chocolate bars when she was pregnant with me; so her son came out with chocolate milk-coloured eyes."

Scott was still laughing, but I was looking at anywhere but him. Seriously, what was wrong with me? Scott was my best guy-friend here, I couldn't go around all jelly legs around him!

Scott must have sensed my discomfort, for he immediately stopped laughing and put his arms around my shoulders.

"Hey..."

I didn't respond, still too embarrassed by my question, and his reaction.

"Alex, look at me."

Scott tilted my head upwards, his right hand under my chin, his left hand resting on my shoulder. Despite his sweater, I could feel the warmth from his touch, and my heart fluttered around.

Honestly, what was wrong with me? I didn't know I had proximity issues!

"Look, don't be scared, Alex. I'll always be here for you. Are you scared to remember, Alex? Is that why you’ve been having trouble?"

Scott's voice was soft, yet husky at the same time. I was so thankful that I couldn't see his eyes; I was having trouble speaking as it is. I gave a small nod, keeping my eyes on a freckle above his lips. God, they were so kissable, I wonder i-

"Don't be, Alex. I know this sounds awful, and I'm really sorry for having to put you through this, but... this is the only way, Alex. Its for your own good, and for others too... Do you understand me?"

My eyes flickered towards his eyes. I hadn't noticed it, but somehow, I had moved closer to him, so there was barely any distance between us. The sun was setting, and the angle of the rays allowed me to see his eyes through his goggles.

I was shocked. For the first time ever, I could see right through the windows of his soul. His eyes were, indeed, a light hue, although the tint of the goggles made it impossible to confirm the exact colour. His eyes were almond shaped, and they were gazing at me with such intensity, that I was immobilized. I couldn't avert my eyes, and for the longest time, we froze in our poses, staring at each other.

"Alex? Are you okay?"

I blinked. Of course Scott would not have realized that I had just seen his eyes for the first time. I shakily nodded, trying to pull myself out of my reverie.

Scott smiled down at me, and pulled me into a hug. It was the first time we had a full, physical contact, and I melted into his embrace. My arms curled around his neck, his arms around my waist. I breathed in his smell: mint and spicy cologne, and nuzzled my face into his jacket. I could feel his fit body underneath, and, when I turned my head to lean properly against him, I could hear Scott's steady heartbeat. I smiled.

"Don't be scared, Alex. I'll always be here for you. We'll go through this together. I promise."