El's Random Ruminations

Laws of Attraction

Going out tomorrow with the boys to fix the river. I got to thinking about Sarah's party and about everything that happened that night. For Sarah, the party went off without a hitch. I used my shield magic and spared my poor sister and future brother in law the stench of the polluted river. I even made sure to meet Prince Aron for the first time in 7 years away from her party. Just in case things went off the rails. Boy was I glad I did that!

 Aron was very attractive. No doubt about that. But as soon as he opened his mouth it was far too obvious he is just 16 years old. He is awkward and arrogant. And in short, he's a child! Not interested in raising a husband. Gross! Technically, in this world, he is about 6 months older than me. But it's just painfully obvious I am 100 years ahead of him. No, I am not touching that boy with a ten foot pole! 

#Team Not-a-pedophile! 

That's my team and always will be.

But this all still has me wondering now about the people I do get attracted to.

When I met Addie it was the typical damsel in distress situation. I was coming back from visiting Ms. Marble when I heard a group of hunters screaming for help. I ran to them as fast as my slow ass could go. Maxwell Hilldale and his team had gotten swarmed by a few frogphants. I knew Max and I knew he was no weakling, so why did he have so much trouble? Easy, his sister Adeline was curled on the ground screaming incoherently and wouldn't move. The boys could not understand what Addie was screaming about, but I did.

"Shooters in the building! There's shooters in the building!" she was screaming in the language of her old world. It seemed obvious to me how she had died in our old world.

So I knew, then and there Addie was a summoned soul. And one with a very traumatic past. I had to get her out of there. I knew what triggered her. The frogphants spit small rocks. The sound of if made her think of the day she died. I rescued her. And she grew attached to me right away.

Our romance didn't happen so fast though. She was attracted to me. But it took me a while before her pretty green eyes and soft sweet face finally wore me down. After that there were plenty of sweet wholesome dates. Plenty of steamy sleepovers. And then it ended, ardor died down in the same way it had built up, slowly. Friendship was still a way for us and always would be. I am grateful for her friendship.

Which brings me now to Sarah's party. Aron was attractive but very much still a child. Ugh, no thank you! Pass! 

But then my eyes landed on Dominic. 

Upgraded and evolved Dominic! I have never experienced such a visceral reaction to seeing someone! Anyone! Did I ever feel this way about the father of my children? I can't remember! I always laughed when romance authors described people with their "whole body on fire" or their "insides turned to liquid". 

It's nonsense... right? 

Physically impossible? 

Wrong! I most definitely was on fire! The fire was cranked up so high I was melting! I wanted to jump that boy's bones! And am I crazy to think maybe he wanted me to jump him?

Is it the magic of this world? Or have I changed in some weird way?

I guess I will see what happens tomorrow. Maybe in this weird misogynistic hellscape I just want to be seen as something more than a giant freak of nature. Maybe I'm just starved for a connection. I guess we'll see what happens tomorrow.