Dominic and I decided to go our separate ways.
It was a hard decision. But it was selfish to hang on. Dom wants to build a home with his horses, raise children and fight the evil smelly Palpatine in charge of Giltea. I don't want to do that. I am tired. I am old in my soul and I just want to rest. I don't have the energy to raise children and I will never be able to ride a horse - let alone the magical Pegasus!
He would spend his entire life fighting to justify his place among the riders and Giltea's noble elite. I don't have the heart to do that. I don't have the strength. He deserves someone who has the energy to do all those things. I care about him but, not enough to spend every day of my life looking over my shoulder. Marrying him would come with the same problems as marrying any other Giltean man. I don't think our relationship is strong enough to survive that pressure. Better to let go. As the days pass, I feel good about that decision.
I know he feels the same, but it was still tough to say goodbye.
I turned in my dissolution request but its been almost a week and that idiot boy Aron hasn't signed it. I hate that now he's going back on everything. It's gonna be a fight to get him to sign. He's a child. I can't do this.
I am just tired.
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El's Random Ruminations
FantasyThoughts and feelings of the Main Character of my current WIP. Welcome To Alderdell is the story of a woman recruited by the creators of Alderdell Tower to save their creation. ***Trigger Warning: some chapters will allude to violence against women...
