A Broken Promise For A Fish [CronKri]

Snowblind

A dark stormy sky is what i had awoken to when i looked outside of my hospital window. I refrained from looking out there as it melted away the old snow.

The last thing i remembered was seeing red and the locket my brother gave to me. I guess I might have slipped on a patch ice, i know it was stupid of me to run in the winter. however the locket made its way to my neck.

I didn't seem to feel the pain when i hit my head but then again, i don't ever think i'll truly be able to feel the conflicting-ness of physical and emotional pain. However when the doctors said that i fainted from blood loss i didn't believe them..

I actually believe that i was just me being overwhelmed by what had happened that morning. There is no way to truly know. But if thats truly why then i guess I'm still my own self and I'm able to have my doubts.

But the first thing i did when i woke up from the spell again was check the date, luckily it wasn't like what happened last time and it was only about 12 hours later and i also woke with a small cast on my left hand it must have twisted when i fell or something.

I'm not sure i would really care to know how a broke it. After all it would just give me another reason why i hate myself for being a clumsy fool.

I slowly placed my hand onto my scalp and softly felt around until about the middle of my right side i could feel the small indentions of the stitches. It figures they would be there i did black out from ' blood loss ' after all. I still don't believe that i could black out that fast from it though.

Cronus was sleeping in the chair again like last time. I wonder how worried he must have been.. He oddly was there sleeping the day i woke up. I wonder if he actually cared that much to come visit everyday..

If so, it must have been a pain to him. But it still makes me question.. And if he did that everyday why? What was the reason for him staying until i either woke up like i did or die? Either way i don't see that he'd win because it seems I'm practically mooching off of him, and i hate that it looks like that.

So far he's done everything for me, he helped me out by not letting me be homeless and letting me stay as long as i please, he has also got me back in touch with my brother, as well as cooking cleaning and other chores around his house.

I just wish i could repay him for everything.

" Chief. " I looked up i was so lost in thought that i didn't even realize Cronus woke up.

" C-Cronus I-I'm so sorry for making you worry this is all my fault! " He grunted and got up.

" Listen Kankri Its fine its not your fault. The doctors said that as soon as you woke up we could leave. Now come on i'm tired and feel like resting in my actual bed. " I nodded and groaned trying my best not to twist my hurt wrist and make it even worse than it already was.

Finally i scooted off of the dense hospital bed and stood up ready to walk with him to the front desk.

" Kankri's sorry if this offends or triggers you in anyway but, you are getting a bit clumsy, try to be more careful. For our sake.. "I felt my face heat up in embarrassment.

" I-I know.. I-I'm so sorry Cronus truly.. " I felt my eyes burn, i cant even remember the last time i let a tear fall. Its been forever since i've felt something like this. And i can't just keep doing this...

I pulled up my turtle neck and followed Cronus to where i got signed out last time, then got everything situated and walked out. We walked together until i pulled down my turtleneck and broke the silence.

" Hey Cronus.. "

" Yea Kankri? "

" I-I want to move out... " He stopped in his tracks and i turned around.

" W-What why? "

" I don't feel like i'm doing you any good.. "

" But Chief, you're fine i swear you aren't doing any harm " He walked towards me and placed a hand on my shoulder making me flinch and step away.

" Kankri? " I looked down and held my locket which was over my shirt. my face heated up once more as i began to turn on my heel and take off in the other direction watching each step so i didn't fall.

" I-I'M SO SORRY! "

" KANKRI! COME BACK! " I turned the corner and scanned the area for a place to hide before deciding on a bush that hid the corner perfectly.  Then i eased into the spot, crouching into a ball as i felt the tears pour out of my face.

" KANKRI!? " I heard Cronus run past where i was.

I can't go back.. I can't stay.. My stay has long been overdue...