A Broken Promise For A Fish [CronKri]

Wake me up

'No matter what you do there is and always will be a hole in your heart, a dark abyss that's full of loneliness and despair.. Its something that you can't dig out of, no one can fill it either because if they did it would burry you alive.

You can't fix the hole once its there, what was in its place before whether you try and fix it or not; will never be the same. So now i give you two choices.. Because, the hole, shouldn't be able to stop you.

You can either lay down and cry, sucking up to the hole and believing there is no way to get out. Meaning you don't try, you don't even think of how you could change your fate and instead.. Just let it happen. You can watch as everyone passes you by, not lifting even a finger to reach out and change something.

Or you can choose to forgive, forget, remember, and fly on. Meaning you make shift with what you have and learn to climb. Reaching out to others, reminding yourself that you're not alone. Because you definitely aren't.

This choice can be hard. Even if you don't realize it's a choice you're making. But once you make a choice..

Make it a good one, because your life is a beautiful story, written by yourself, in a spectrum of colors and emotion. Don't let yourself be another dull colorless page without even one outspoken word.

Be vibrant, be yourself. Don't let anyone push you into the hole of nothingness. Only let them help you out of it and forget the bad times.

In the end.. Make it a good story because you are beautiful, and i want to see that.....'

I once read something like that before i took a nosedive into my coma. It had to be probably one or two days before. But somehow, it was etched into my brain like a promised written in blood that one has vowed to keep.

I soon found myself starring into nothing as cars flew past and minutes turned into hours. Soon it was night time which left me to freeze in the still cold season-transitioning night.

My stomach growled as i realized i didn't have any money or anywhere to stay, And I didn't even have a warm jacket. Yea, surprise, surprise, this big sweater isn't enough. Man, I wish i had thought this through.

I leaned against the brick corner hidden by the bushes where i had been sitting, and attempted to get up. Almost instantly my muscles locked up leaving me in pain.

" Augh! " I stood put and instantly fell onto the sidewalk in from of somebody.

" K-Kankri! Oh my stars.. What are you doing hiding in the bushes?! Have you been here since you left with Cronus?! " I looked up to see a Porrim with a worried face.

" He must be worried sick abou- "

" No! " This time i got up and she looked confused.

" Kankri..? W-What are you saying? "

" I've been nothing but a burden to him! "

" O-Ohohoh! I doubt it! He's been so happy having you there at his house! Ever since Eridan... "

" Wait.. What happened? " She sighed and pulled me into her arms.

" Well.. Kankri, you see... he uh.. He and Cronus had a huge fight.. Thats when he moved out, they haven't talked since and he's been so lonely that about two to three months before you woke up.. He began to come and see you every day. " I stared in disbelief, i'd never knew it was that bad before.. There's got to be another reason for it, not just a fight.

" I think you were keeping him stable.. I don't think he wants to lose you as i've already have done.. " Me? Keeping him stable? But i'm not even stable myself..

" Porrim.. M-May i ask you something if you may? " She nodded and made a slight ' mhmm? ' sound.

" Do you really think that i'm the only link between Cronus going insane or distrusting everyone? " I could feel my cheeks heat up a little from the question. She turned me around and motioned for me to walk beside her.

" Well it very well might be possible.. He'd bring flowers for you every single day even if it was just a wildflower he picked from the grass one day.. " She paused and she stopped at what seemed to be her car.

" You see Kankri, he needs you. Right now you can only get to him and i don't want anything bad to happen.. please consider me dropping you off at Cronus' house. If not today Tomorrow? " I looked to the frosted grass next to me, the wind made me shiver and the grass rustle.

"Fine.. " I began to stare up at the evening sky that was filled with sparkling stars
" maybe it'll do good.. " Just then Porrim's cellphone rang and she picked it up. I listened and i could tell it was Cronus.

" PORRIM! I'VE LOST KANKRI I- "

" No.. He's right here. "