A Broken Promise For A Fish [CronKri]

Wings to Fly On

What is trust? Is it just an illusion? Can you ever just ' trust ' someone?

" wait.... WHAT?! " I zoned out after that.. All i could hear is Cronus' concerned screaming and before long a dead line. Porrim sighed and walked to a bench that was near by she seemed to be upset about Cronus acting this way.  However, there was nothing i could really do, I just feel like i'm in the same place as to where i started..

Insecure, unwanted, lousy, stupid, and worthless.. Thats how i feel right now.. I knew that thats what everyone except a fee others thought of me like that but i used to not care.

Porrim extended her hand to me and i took it before burying my face into her thin motherly waistline smelling her sweet evergreen and timber fragrance around her.

" You know you hurt him Kankri? " I nodded and sniffed in the smell of her evergreen scented clothes.

" I-Is there anything i can do.. " She sighed and patted my back before turning me to her car.

" Well lets go.. ill let you stay with me for the night... " She walked towards the drivers side as i stood there...

What have i done... There's no reason i really had ran.. Is there? Am i truly just a bother? I cant think this is just too much.

" P-Porrim.. " I took a deep breath and walked towards the car.

" Hmm? "

" How bad did i hurt him? "

" Well on a scale of 1-10 on the trauma chart.. I'd say a 3 or 4.. Really i feel he'll get over it.. " She opened the door and sat down before grabbing her keys out of her pocket.

I did the same and closed my door after she did before i curled up my legs to my chest.. What is this lonely feeling i have? Its not like what i felt before my coma..

Hell, i cant even explain the cause. Why though? Why cant i? Why does my life have to make me feel this horrible? Honestly i'd rather feel nothing at all than be the mess i am now.

The cloth on my knees seemed to soak up all the tears i hadn't realized had started to finally run past my eyes.

" Take me to him.. "

" W-what..? "

" I meed to fix this.. "

" Kank... You've done nothing wrong.. he just felt like you did t want to stay at his house without a good reason. And It just made him mad that i found you before he could.. "

" Still... Please.. Porrim i need to see him. This ' letting things set and be part of the plan ' doesn't always work!"

" But Kanks.. "

" No i need to really.. Trust me.. "