A Broken Promise For A Fish [CronKri]

Ｂｒｅａｔｈ Ｏｕｔ

I stood on the cracked pavement, breathing in, and out. Its been months..... Scratch that... At least almost two years since i've stood on this side walk.. I've basically been kicked out of my originally planned life.. I planned to live in silence, peace. But I didn't plan for being trapped in a hospital for as long as i was..

Heartbreak... I didn't think that I'd ever feel this feeling. I'd shut myself out and kept at a distance so i never had to. But that's the only feeling that i can comprehend.

i sighed and turned around looking at the truck where Cronus sat everyday to drive us around. To where ever i wanted to go. Where ever I wanted..... What.... I...... Wanted.......

Needless to say.. i don't want him doing what i want.. but he doesn't want to lose me again.. He's practically become a slave to his own wish to keep me by his side. I don't like this.. This isn't him. But i feel as if this may break him if i ever decided to leave.

I turned back once more to what i was looking at. My old house... Well, what was left of it at least. All that was left now was the framework of a once comfortable estate.

Why am i here now? What brought me to this place once again? Well there is one simple answer to this..

The news..

No i don't mean news that someone like a friend or family member literally told me, but the nightly newscast on a Sunday night.

Its seems now that the ash and soot has stained the concrete, there's nothing left for me.. Nothing but him. I need him just like he needs me. We're only good for each other.. What brought me back was an idea i had to compensate for.

This house was the first place me and Karkat ever lived at on earth. Now its gone. I mean, really i shouldn't care. I haven't been here for a long while even while being conscious. I'm serious i shouldn't care that its gone.. but i do.  I grunted and walked back to the truck and got in.

" Whats wrong chief? " I shook my head,
"Nothing to be worried about.. " This time he shrugged it off like it was absolutely nothing. I rested my elbow on the car door and my hand on my face, it was... wet? I blinked a few time and my eyes became blurry till they once again adjusted from the violent flutters.

If i was crying why didn't he pester me? Am I really that closed pff from the world and our feelings towards each other? I honestly can't be bothered to care..

" I don't get it.. " I spoke up and turned to him. He didn't turn back, this was normal by now because i've showed him not to care. Likewise he's shown me how...

" What is it? Kanks spit it out.. " I looked out the window again.

" Why is life unfair, not in my terms but.. to the points of where, we as a species have lost our planet, and here on this one we're better off than most humans."

" I don't know kankri, but i do know that its a lot more unfair that you generalize it to be.."

" Why is that? "

" Because you have me."