So yeah I literally did just stop texting first. If I'm not worth enough time for even just a proper good morning text or any of your time then yeah I think I'd rather distance myself more, it's clear you're not the person I thought you were anymore. Yeah people change and I hate to say it but you changed for the worse not the better. Not sure if it's how it truly is but texting me only when you have a problem isn't very cool. It's not that I have an issue with helping you out, if anything I'd do anything in my power to help you. I will check on you to see if your problem is fixed yet or not, I will try to help as best I can but there's only so much I can do. I still would help even with how I feel like I'm the last option, you were different, you weren't like anyone else. You were like an older sibling to me, more than what my 'friends' are. Though most of them also make me feel as though they only talk to me for the same reason, they need something or no one else can talk. Again I don't have an issue with helping, I considered you as family at some point..nothing more, nothing less. I wanna be there for you too but it seems you're not as truthful as before. It sucks for me to admit that I can't confidently say I trust you, you're honest about everything, or anything following. I wouldn't say I don't trust you at all, it's still there, just a lot more doubtful and skeptical. It could all just be in my head but why don't I think about anyone else like this, why don't I doubt others like I doubt you?... I don't want to, I wanna trust you but everyday it seems I'm being pushed away more and more. Like I'm merely hanging onto something that isn't there. Yeah you've said I'm your best friend, but am I really?... or is it like other people who say that but only let me keep that thought to get things when they need it?.. it's just something on my mind, been there for a while.
If you're reading this and you know it's about you, I'm sorry. I'm not good with this stuff and it's just my way of expressing myself. I'll remove it if you want, just let me know.
