I hate him so much. I honestly don't really use the word hate and mean it but I think I mean it this time. I'm happy for him but breaking a promise and then just leaving me like that is just...damn. it pisses me off so much cause I spent so much time with him and we used to be pretty close, close enough to were we told each other things we wouldn't tell anyone else he even said this a few times "I trust you, I mean we've known each other since 3rd grade so please don't tell anyone what I'm about to tell you. Ok?" We even played sports together. And all this ended because his partner told him to block me and not talk to me no more and he listened. That shi pissed me off so much it's affecting me at school like I feel like I have to avoid my best friend cause I have been getting mad so easily and I don't want to get mad at her for something that isn't her fault. I honestly don't know how to deal with this no more. I get it I have other friends and have a best friend or at least I think I do. But it's still upsetting having to lose someone you've known for years. I wouldn't doubt it if he forgot about me already. This was maybe the longest friendship I've ever had. And I also get it we all change as we grow but he's the only person out of all my other friends to do that shit. Now I'm just scared to get close to my best friend at school (Ms. Grande 😝 or "pookie"💀) like she could just be like "bye. I don't wanna be your friend no more." Or something like that at any second. I want to talk to her and not have to worry about that but I just can't stop thinking about it. I'm so confused and anxious now. Like my anxiety has been threw the roof. Even my hands have been more shaky. I'm dead 💀
