Alright I'm dooooone. So fucking done. I'm done convincing myself you're honest. I'm done convincing myself you're a good person. I'm done convincing myself you really were my 'best friend' all along. It's clear you've chose your path already. Hanging out with those two faced assholes who lie to your face was one thing but I put it down since I thought you were different. Trusting them more than me was another. "We get along" and then acting like you care is another. You want to judge me on how I am, yet you're no different. "Would God like that?" As if you should be asking me that. Ask yourself. You hang out with lying manipulators, your boyfriend is one too. I found out a while ago but forced myself to believe otherwise just because I wanted to trust everything you said. I quickly realized you are just like anyone else or even worse actually. You lied to my face even at a Christian camp where you're supposed to follow the word of God? Now that's a new low. You lied to your dad too?? Shit you're on a roll now aren't you. Are you proud of what you've become? Yeah I'm entirely sure I can say that I'm a much better person than you. I can say that I'm better than anything, keep trying to convince yourself otherwise but I am. You're a terrible person. Never thought I would ever say that towards you but it's only true. You made it true. You are my last reason. I really wanted to try living my last few years happily, but now nothing seems to look real anymore. You are my reason for a new attempt at my death. The only thing I wanna do now is end my life sooner than it already is.
