Only Human ༯ Spencer Reid

Update (A.K.A Crawling Out From Whatever Hole I Crawled Into Four Years Ago)

Slithers in like a worm in a cute wonky hat to distract you from the obvious date of my last post.

Okay, wow.

Hi. Hello. Good Whatever-Time-Of-Day-It-Is-For-You.

It's been almost 4 years since I even as much looked at this account. 4 whole years. 4 years in which a lot has happened. 4 years in which I grew so much as a person that I don't even recognize myself anymore.

I'm 22 now. I've moved out and 300km away from home 2 years ago, and I'm now in my third year of university. I'm an English major, which has always been my dream, and due to that, I have advanced so much as a person and as a writer that I don't think anything I've written 4 years—or longer—ago matches up to the level I have reached in the past 4 years. Not that it's perfect, by any means, but it's gotten... let's just say, better. Now that I have a better grasp of the English language, anyway.

Yes, I've been writing. Yes, I've been engaging in fandom culture because that is a part of me I will always keep close to my heart. I just happened to sway far from my Criminal Minds obsession and somehow land myself in the Daredevil fandom (I thank Charlie Cox and his cameo in No Way Home for that). I've also met the guy, can you believe it? Anyway. My brain's straying from the point again.

I've moved over to Tumblr as @/farfromstrange, and I've been writing there and on AO3 ever since. I have built myself a small community on both platforms, and ended up completely forgetting about this account. I don't know what happened. I'm not trying to excuse it, but I think I just got so busy with growing up that my hyperfixation shifted to a show I desperately needed when I was struggling with all that. Depression, anxiety, a fall out with my oldest friends, and then finally, getting diagnosed with a chronic illness after years of wondering what's wrong with me. Criminal Minds helped too, yes, but Daredevil saved my life when I least expected it.

I didn't even think I would make it to 20, let alone 22, but here I am. Why, you might ask? Well, I've been dipping my toes into writing for Law & Order: SVU, especially Rafael Barba because I apparently have a thing for sassy lawyers, and I started planning and creating an OC for that story (after writing mostly reader inserts for the past 3 years; that's also something I've been trying out since I disappeared and it's become my personality, mostly). And when I was creating her, my idea for her backstory seemed too familiar to just be some elaborate idea my brain conjured up on a whim. So, that's when my forgetful ass remembered the OG: my darling Skylar. And I realized that this new OC is basically her twin, or her clone in some other realm of the multiverse. Whatever.

After that, I decided to go on the hunt for the password to this account. Just for shits and giggles, I thought. Took me a bit, but I guess it worked. And holy shit, you guys!

Holy shit.

This silly little fic I started what? 5 years ago? Or has it been 6? THIS Fic right here? You're telling me it has over 244k likes?! That is fucking insane, and even though it's been a while, I love you guys. I love all of you. Like, a lot. You probably hate me right now, which is fine, I get it, but I love you, so... deal with it.

Now, I may or may not be planning to edit this story from its very core (because let's be real for a hot second, the grammar and plot here need a LOT of work), and once I've figured out what the fuck my original plan was for this story (I lost all of my old writing notes in the move), I might actually get back into writing it. Because 17-year-old me had no idea what she was doing. Neither did 18-year-old me. Not really, anyway. And that mentally deranged teenage girl (I still am mentally deranged, just not a teenager anymore, just to get that straight) shouldn't have been writing half of the things she was writing about. I realize that now. I know a lot of you are enjoying this Fic immensely, but I haven't looked at it in four years, and when I finally do, it's gonna get pulled apart until I'm satisfied.

I do, however, want to add that I'm a full-time college student with a job and writing is still only a hobby (so far), which means I focus on the things that make me happy. I work on the projects that are fun for me. It might take time, but I don't want to leave the story unfinished. I also want to start posting other stuff on here again, simply because I miss the comment function on this app. I miss the engagement. That doesn't mean I'm gonna abandon Tumblr or AO3. Instead, I'm going to work through my profile and use it as my 'dumping ground' (affectionately) for my OC stuff.

Prepare to be sick of me.

Again, I am so sorry for disappearing. I hope you can find it in yourselves to forgive me.

Yours truly,
Lizzi <3

Slithers away again and hides behind a big shiny rock in case the firing squad comes after me.