Couldn't End It

Chapter 3: Why Me?

I felt such agony. I can't even describe it, my head hurt so much. I slowly wake up. I notice I am in a were house. I didn't know what as going on. I slowly start to panic. I move my hands and scream. There where tied and the chair rubbed on my cuts. Every move I made cause my to groan at the pain.

I look around and notice the windows where shattered and the place looked empty. No one seemed to be round so I scream for help. I soon enough heard a loud noise. I tried to figure out what it was , then I heard it again. Now I'm hearing doors, steps getting closer and closer.

"Hello" I very deep husky voice said. I turn my neck a bit and was in shock.

"Surprised?" He spoke once again. I nodded,I didn't know what else to do I felt hopeless, as always. "Why don't you talk? I know you can. What is it. Are you shy?" I stayed quite

"TALK DAMIT!" He pushed my shoulders back. Causing the chair to go back, luckily he caught it in time. I got scared of this side I never thought I'll see. "Please talk...your killing me"

"I'm killing you?" I quietly whisper just enough for him to hear. "Yes, don't you see it?" A slight smile appears on him. I shake my head no. I don't get how I'm killing him "from the moment I fist saw you I thought you where cute looking. This doesn't usually happen but I just had the urge to stare and can't stop looking at you"

cute looking? No. No. No this can't be happening im not suppose to have anyone even think I look good for a day. "What's wrong?" He asked
"can you just let me go please" I look at the floor.
"Will you leave me?" I looked up him. I shake my head no. Lies. He started to untie me but I keep groaning at the pain. "I'm sorry I'm not trying to hurt you" I didn't speak but keep moaning in pain. He finally managed to untie me. I immediately stood up. "Please don't leave" he said graving my risk. I groan again. He immediately pulled away not wanting to hurt me "please forget about me, forget I even exist. Leave me alone" I said very low, walking away

"Please?" He said once again. His voice sounded hopeless. "Please what? You don't even know me. Just forget me I'm not trying to get pregnant" At this point I was begging him
"Pregnant? No I just want to know you. Slowly fall in love" my eyes wide

Good luck getting pregnant

The lady's word Echoed in my mind when he said that. "Slowly falling in love? That's doesn't exist anymore." I walked away, for good this time.

I arrived at home not knowing the time but by the look of the sun it was around 6. I walked in and the women was standing there. "Where have you been?" She ask in a scary voice. "I stayed late in school to know teachers and the school better" I lied if she knew what happen she would think other wise "mhm okay, did you choose a good baby daddy?" That comment made me tear up making me sad that my own "mother" doesn't believe in me. "No, I promised my self il do better-" she cuts me off "better than who? Me? What are you trying to say?" She got very angry "I'm going to my room" my tears started to run down my face as I walked to my room I locked the door.

Come on Yule, for now only, you need me.

It was just standing there. It was on the counter. Just shining it seemed. I got up from the floor and picked it up. I slid my sleeve up slowly. Another tear feel on my arm. I grabbed the blade and slid it right across my tear drop. I drop the blade and let it fall to the floor. I clench my teeth at the feeling and all my tears start coming down. I drowned in my thoughts again.

Why me?why did I have this life? Couldn't I atlease have a mother that cares? Can I have a father? Can I atlease know where my father is? Can my mother just think that I can do better than her? Why does the girl even hate me? Is it how I look? My hair? My size? My style? Was it this sweater? What's wrong with me? Can I just die for real this time? Why didn't it work last time? Is there even a god? If there is,why me,god? Why does anyone have to go through this? Or am I just the only one? Why does that Justin guy like me? Look at me I'm awful.

I ended up crying myself to sleep at night. I woke up and looked in the mirror my ears where puffed up. It was totally noticeable that I cried. Then I turned to my bed. I notice there was blood. Shit! She will kill me is she sees it. The thing is she will kill me for the stain. She wouldn't even give a shit about me self harming myself.  I quickly take off the sheets I needed to wash them. I walk out and see her on the kitchen. "Where are you going?" She asked braking the silence. "Washing" she stands up and walks closer to me "ohh forgot to mention, you should start looking for a job. Your now 15 and in highschool. It's getting old that I'm taking care of you. I have been taking care of you for a while now. You will find a job and give me half of the money as rent. as for washing and eating, you'll be buying that. I thought I'll be a little nice and let you use water for free. After all you always stink."

I slowly walk back to my room and just flip the sheets. I didn't argue, knowing she's not changing her mind, or she probably will make me pay for water as well. I needed to find a job soon.

I arrived to school late. It was 2nd period already. I get my tardy pass and go up to my class and walk in "why are you late Yulema?" The teacher asked. "Woke up late" I simply responding. She continued with the classes and justin starts to stares again. I was wearing a hat today and the teacher asked me to take it off. "She was probably having a hang over from working last night" I hear the girl name Taylor whisper. I was trying to be strong. But I've already broken a tear drop. I quickly swiped it away.

Soon they bell rang and I ran off to my class. I felt someone hold onto my risk. I groan and turned. I see him again. "Hey" he said still holding onto my risk which hurts. "Let go of me" I begged. He lets go "I got to go to class bye, and forget about me" I said walking away.

He yells "I'll forget about you when you lift up your sleeves!" I stop and walk to him.