Couldn't End It

Chapter 5: Talking Leds To Sex

I close my eyes hopping it was a dream. I wanted to wake up badly, but it wasn't. He was actually standing there. Wasn't he ruined my life enough?

"Yulema?" He loudly whispered.

I open the windows and just stod there. I mean, was there anything to do at this point? "Can we talk?" What! Really? "After everything you've done and caused?" He looked confuse but I know it's all for show. "Please, just for a couple min atlease" what if those couple min he rapes me.

Talking leads to sex

I keep thinking about it I wasn't sure. This so called women,would probably get mad. Yeah she will! I didn't want to risk my self I shook my head no. He looked disappointed. Then all of a sudden a smile appeared on his face. I widen my eyes at what has occurred to this stupid boy. He grabs a chair and got on it and climbed in the window. My window was only a few feet of the ground so it wasnt hard to escape or come in.

"What in the world are you doing?!?" I was raising my voice but whispering at the same time. "Well you didn't want to come out so I needed to come in, we're talking about this and that's final!" Who the hell does this guy think he is. Ohh no!! I freak out! THERES A GUY IN MY ROOM!!! No no no no it can't be. How on earth did this happen? I don't even know him! It's the beginning of the year and I already got a guy in my room. I didn't want to prove her right. i needed to get him out of here. No! I refused to be pregnant. I can't handle Thas anymore I grab it between the two mattresses, I walk out and head to the bathroom.

Not fast enough. He grabs my wrists again this time it was my left, so it didn't hurt. "What are you doing?" He asked already knowing the answer.  "I can't handle this anymore it's too much! I need to. Please, Let go. I need to" I was begging him. I shouldn't have to but I felt the need can he atlease do something good for me. Just this one time. "Okay fine" he releases me "but I'm not letting you do it" he says quickly blocking the door.

Ugh why do you have to ruin everything?" He looked confused "what do you mean? Is it because I saw your-" I cut him off "my cuts? Yeah because you saw and told the principal, thanks to you she came in angry. You made everything more worst! Because of you I got all my friend taken away" I didn't realize I was in tears. "Friends? The razor blades? Listen Yulema,there not your friend. Friends don't cause you pain, they heal it-" he stops he looks down. I instantly turn red. "What is that" he asked pointing at the shirt on my arm. "Nothing" I shyly say putting the hand behind me. "Let me see!" He demands. I was scared at his tone of voice letting him see. He grabs my hand gently and undoes the shirt. He slowly closed his eyes as if he was disappointed, or let down.

"Why?" He asked. "Because of you" his eyes open up. Wider than ever. "What did I do?" This fucking bastard! He doesn't even know. "What didn't you do? You ruined my high school year and started talking to me. Then you notice something's and didn't shut up! No...you had to go and find out more. I show you my cuts in trust and you go ahead and tell the principal about it causing them to call my mom and she comes in my room ready to beat the shit out of me. Then she takes them away." I breath letting it all process through. I slowly breath "that's 3! 3 tragic things that are now in my body marked. I will always remember how much of a jerk you are thanks to my friend." He stayed quite not knowing what to say."well i think that's a waste of time. I didnt tell on you, I promise. I wanted to come here to talk about it, to tell me your story. I don't know why but I have this urge to get to know you. Please don't cut, instead talk to me."

"If you didn't then who did?" I didn't care about anything else, just the fact he didn't tell. "I don't know maybe they want to reward you?" He shrugged. "Why would they want to do that? What a waste!" I was referring to the space on my arm but i guess Justin thought about the reward thingy."it's not a waste, your a great person" he grabs my hand. "Now tell me. Every single story line"

"Justin" I whispered. "Yeah?" He looked up at me. "There's about 50 here, I don't think there's enough time. And i have enough to deal with, I don't want to go though it all over again" he started to hit himself in the head" ohh I'm so stupid how did I not figure it out!? It's fine I understand"

"Can you leave now?" I shyly ask. "You want me to leave?" I nooded "why?" Ugh why he asking so many question. "Because I just do" he sat in my bed "naw I'm staying just to make sure your okay." No no no. He couldn't stay. "If my mom find you she's going to fre-"

"FREAK? You got that wrong!" She stood there rolling her eyes. " if anything I'm glad I know who's the baby daddy is. I told your slutty ass it was going to happen. Ever since I saw you I just knew you where going to get knocked up by highschool. Make sure when your done" she pause looking at him "he takes you. Rent isn't going to cover a child. So he can stay in charge" she said pointing at Justin. She slams the door and leaves. My tears instantly comes out. I feel two hard hands trying to hug me. I quickly pull away "look at what you've done! Thank you now I have no house to live in! Because of you my life got even worst. Why could you just be like Taylor and make fun of me from a distant!" My tears start to quickly run down my cheek. "I'm sorry I had no idea" I instantly snap back. "Of course you didn't. No one ever does. This is why I didn't talk cause" I pause calming down. "Talking leads to sex" I quietly whispered.

"That not true. We're talking and we're not having sex, please forgive me you can stay with me. My parents won't mind. But for tonight I think you should rest here. And I'll sleep on the floor." Who invited him. Well I guess I couldn't argue anymore since it want my home anymore. "Good night Yule" I quickly yell

"DONT EVER CALL ME THAT!!"