Couldn't End It

Chapter 8: First

I got in the car with my mom and she started to scream at me tears came running down my face. But this turn my because of her, I blocked her voice. I was crying because all of a sudden a father comes in and takes care of my highschool fees. I mean he didn't come himself and send a check. He's didn't even call once. Nothing. We arrived to the house and I ran inside. I grabbed that razor and sliced. I cried and cried. Seeing the deep red calm me down. For now. I grabbed my bookbag and fit all my clothing and pants in. I took one black sweater. I knew I will never come back and I don't have clothes so I shoved everything I know I need. In my book bag there was couple pair of jeans legging and long sleeve shirts and I wore my sweeter . The blood kept dripping. I put my bag down and walked out my room. "All done?" She asked. I nooded yes and when into the bath room. I got on top of the toilet and check the cabinate.

I reached for the bottle of patron. I locked the door and sat on the floor. At that moment my only option I knew was to drink the night away. I took one sip making my throat burn. Ignoring it and took another sip, then another one. More tears came down my face causing more memories to come to me.

I remember having a good childhood in the begging but through out my life those dissapeared. I keep drinking and soon got the guts to throw the bottle at the wall causing it to shatter and liquids all over the wall. She knocked wondering what I was doing.i got up open the door walked passed her and grab my bag and walk out. I heard her scream and telling me to get back to her but I was to drunk to even care. I open the door and the wind hit me. I was more drunk with the wind, I never understood that but it just happens. I was soon walking to my school, they where about to leave and I didn't know where Justin lived do I needed to see him. I was outside of the school and just standing there. Half an hour passed and I notice kids coming out, soon I felt 2 hand wrapped around me.

"I've been thinking about you all day long" he sounded worried.

I tried taking one step and almost tiped over "did you drink the night away?" He was still worried I wasn't as drunk but I knew what I was doing. We started walking and ended up in a garden "where are we?" I managed to say, I thought we where going to go to his house "where at this garden. Where close to our house I just wanted to know if everything going to be alright with you" he seemed so caring, loving, and looked good. He was staring deep into my eyes. He sat me down on the grass with my back against a tree. He knelt down not breaking eye contact with me. Me on the other hand was a little drunk to focus on him. He got closer and I focused better he leaned forward and he kissed me lightly taping my lips. I don't know exactly what was going on but he did it again this time he used tong, I didn't kiss back, I didn't know how to so I just stayed there.

He pulled back couple seconds later. "I'm sorry Yule. I didn't mean to" he pauses "ohh I'm sorry I mean-" I cut him off "ulee? Is that me?" I swear he called me ulee. Right? "Yeah that's you ulee, see I told you I would find another nickname for you." He chucked, it was like music to my ears.

***

I sobered up soon after that. I remember everything, even the kiss.

I was now in Justin house and thank god his parents weren't home. i don't want them to see me like this. "So why did they call you to the principal office" he asked nervously. I took time to process it before speaking up again. "Turns out my so called dad, is now paying for all 4 years of highschool. And that's when I went home and drank it away." He sighed "ohh I'm sorry" he took a deep breath. " what you drink? You where very drunk" My eyes where focus on the tiles on the floor "patron and I was not that drunk." I needs to defend my self. He chuckled, again music to my ears "yes you where". He was trying to argue with me on purpose but I don't know why. "No I wasn't I remember, everything" I said lowly, hopping he didn't really hear. "Everything?" He asked making sure he was correct. I nodded in confirming yes. He took a while before speaking up "e-even, uhh even the-" "the kiss? Yeah that too" I saved him the trouble. I looked up only to find him staring at me, causing me to quickly look down.

"I'm sorry Ulee, I didn't mean to kiss you it was so tempting. Please don't think I took advantage of you cause I didn't." his apology seemed so sensitive. A side of him I never thought I'll see. "Wait does that mean you also remember the name I accidentally called you, cause I'm sorry for that too" I was confuse for a min, until I got my joyful back together. "Yeah it's fine. It's all good only I swear I heard Ulee not the other name but I'm glad you finally found another name" I gave him a weak smile.

***

Later that night we ended up watching movies on the couch. We where on opposite ends. His parents still hasn't arrived, but there where about to according to Justin.

Knock knock

"That must be them" he said going to get the door. I stood up and covered everything hopping they would accept me. I heard a bit of talking but I couldn't make it out. They walked towards my way and the mother smiled. I couldn't see the father yet.

"Hello! Yulema is it?" She greeted with a handshake and a smile.

I smiled back and nodded. Justin was talking with his father about who knows what. "It's nice to meet you. Justin told be you will be staying here" I nooded and said yeah confirming it.

"Stay all long as you want, your always welcomed here. Ohh here comes my husband" he walked up to me. And smiled "hello I'm Jeremy, Jeremy Bieber" he hold out his hand indicating for me to shake it. I shook it and smiled. Justin came in.

"ohh I'm sorry! How rude of me im pattie, pattie mallet" I was confused "mallet?" Why not Bieber? "Ohh yeah I decide to keep my name."

"Ohh, that's fine ms. Mallet" I don't mine them BIRNG a little rude after all they are better than the women. "Ohh don't do that!" Pattie said

"Do what?" I didn't want to do anything wrong. "Call us mr. And mrs. It makes us feel old." Said Jeremy nods and apologize.

***

Pattie was making dinner while Justin was showing me my room. "So here's your room. And I have never seen you smile so much." I was slowly blushing. Not knowing why but I was. "Ohh I had practice."

"Practice?" I nooded "yeah when I was with her she would always make me act like we where perfect and I would smile and nodded"

"Ohh well here you don't have to pretend, it's fine to role your eyes once in a while" he said as he fixes my bed. "Who said I was pretending. Your family is very kind, just like, just like you" he smiled

"Thank you. Now i strongly advise for you to lock the door when you use the bathroom. You and me share a bathroom so look both doors" he laugh a bit, it was all music to my ears. "Okay" I laugh a little with him. "Yeah I have this habit of just walking and so please lock it and knock because I also don't lock the door." He chucked again and left.

A smiled Appeared on my face. I took everything out of my bag and fixed everything.

That night I was thinking.

I had my first drunk day
I had my first kiss
My first feeling toward Justin
My first time metting a happy family
My first happy thought
My first night sleeping well
First turn not worried about anything.

And I slowly feel to sleep