Will Poulter Imagines

Its Been A While (Song Imagine)

Based on the song Its Been Awhile by Staind (A favorite band of mine!)

I knew he was in the area today and I knew I would want to see him. I also knew I wouldn't want to see him because of the choice he made between me and his dream of becoming an actor.
I understand I shouldn't be mad at Will because, of course, when it comes to something you really love and want to do all of your life versus a girl that is way below your level, you're going to choose your dream.
And that's what he did.
Right now he was in the area filming his current movie, The Maze Runner where he was to obviously play some character named Gally.
I've never read the book, but since he's in the movie, I thought about maybe reading it.
I look at the studio in front of me as I put the car in park behind another one.
I look over he building a few times before turning my attention towards the crowd of women and some men trying to get answers for there questions by no one other than Will himself.
He looked amazing, like he usually did. I couldn't even believe that I came here in nothing but a hoodie, jeans, and some old dirty converse.
"What am I doing here?" I ask myself out loud as I pull up my hoodie to try and cover my face as I pass by them.
I go to start my car when the engine started to purr and then it went out.
"Come on." I say to the car as I try again.
And again.
And again.
I look up and see that Will is still answering questions, occasionally laughing and smiling.
I sigh and open the car door, taking my keys out and locking it up so I could come back later with someone to fix the piece of junk.
I had to go pass them, but I didn't want to. I couldn't.
I look to the side of the building and thankfully there's an alley and hopefully a way around.
I walk to the alley and when I do, I spot Will going inside the studio.
"Thank God." I say.
I walk through the alley, feeling my anxiety build up by the seconds.
I look around a corner and sure enough there's a way around this mess.
"Hey."
I look ahead of myself with widened eyes and a dropped jaw.
I continue to walk, not trying to look back, but I fail.
I see him standing there with his hands in his black jean pockets.
His black t-shirt made his paleness stand out and it really did give me goose bumps.
"Its been awhile." He says as he moves towards me.
"Yeah, I know, but you shouldn't be worried about that. You're busy, time fly's when you're busy." I say while adding a fake laugh at the end of it.
"I thought I wouldn't see you again." He says as he looks me up and down.
"I should have just stayed home today." I say to him as I start to turn around.
I feel his hand grab onto my own and he turns me around, taking his hand away from mine.
"I should have stayed home." He says as he looks me in the eyes.
I look behind me hopeing for a distraction, hopeing for something else to talk about with him besides our past relationship.
"You wouldn't be where you are now if you didn't leave." I say to him as I take a step back. "And you wouldn't be where you are now if I didn't leave either." He says back.
He must have really learned how to twist minds even better than he knew how.
"Everything happens for a reason." I say without thinking about it first.
That's what I would tell myself everytime I thought about him.
"But you look like you're doing good, keeping your head up and all." I add.
He looks at his feeting, nodding before he looks back into my eyes.
"Its been a while since I could hold my head up high." He says.
"And its been awhile since I could stand on my own two feet again."
I nod in agreement, knowing well what he means, or at least in my own way.
He smiles at me and he starts to rub his neck.
"I still love you, you know." He says.
I make a slight chuckle as I had just thought about saying the same thing.
"Its been awhile since I could say I loved myself as well."
I knew what he meant.
I hated myself for letting him go, and maybe he hated himself for leaving me, I don't know.
"And its been awhile since I've gone and fucked things up, just like I always do." I say to him.
I laugh and look to the side of me as I pull my hoodie closer to my body.
"But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you."
He smiles and walks up to me, closer than before, before he hugs me tightly.
"I missed you, as fucked up as it all may seem to me." He says into my hair.
My eyes start to tear up and my throat does that annoying noise thing.
"Its been awhile." I say. My voice may have sounded weird because of all the crying I was about to do, but he just held me closer to himself.

A/N
I start school next Wednesday, when do you guys start school if you haven't already?