Adonis

Chapter 13 - First Time

Yeah, I've seen it all before.

That same scene.

A sea of ​​flames surrounded us. And I, for the first time, failed to save someone. Did it have to be my partner?

I didn't care if we had failed the mission, if everything had gone down the drain. Maybe I was even at risk of losing my position, failing in a mission like this was the worst possible thing. I clearly wouldn't be the 2nd strongest agent, maybe the Leaders would even fire me. NONE OF THAT MATTERED.

Shit. I failed.

If only I were stronger.

"Thanatos. No, please don't."

I tried my best. I held him on my lap, even with that smoke and heat slowly killing me. He was in a worse state than me.

If only I were stronger.

I gently caressed his face, trying my best to talk to him, to keep him conscious. But I realized that the simple act of breathing was already being tricky for him. He wasn't going to live much longer.

If I were stronger...

"Hold on a little longer. Please."

But he didn't even answer me anymore. His eyes were closed, as if he was sleeping. He looked so serene, almost like a child.

He died, didn't he?

I let out the longest sigh. Exhaling all the remaining air I had in me. Me too, if I continued in that sea of ​​fire, I wouldn't hold on any longer. I don't have the strength to take his body out of here.

"I refuse to leave you here, alone."

Why did it have to be like this?

Not even Rodie is here.

None of this means anything. None of this makes sense without you here.

Shit, Thanatos. It was my fault.

If I were stronger...

"I..."

My heart was tightening and it wasn't because I was having trouble breathing. Looking at his calm expression hurt. It wasn't supposed to be like this.

"If I were stronger..."

What a shitty life. I wanted to go back in time.

"Thanatos, I... if I could live again... I promise I would become stronger to save you."

Ah.

Little by little my senses faded and everything went dark. No, wait.

Was I still alive?

I opened my eyes and saw an immense whiteness. A figure appeared, it was a tall woman. She was wearing what seemed to be a large skirt that dragged along the floor, her arms and torso were completely black. She had long, flowing white hair. A huge golden halo that simulated a clock with hands. On her face, some golden tattoos, one golden eye and another red. And on her cheek, a large burn scar. I've never seen a God in person, but if I were to imagine the aura they have, I'd say it's exactly the feeling this woman gives me:

"You don't know what you're wishing for."

"huh?"

"Yes, you" - She pointed at me - "Do you know what you just promised?"

"I just..."

I don't understand anything. I don't understand what she's saying. None of this matters. I just wish I could go back in time and save Thanatos. If I were stronger I could save him. It was simply because I was too weak: