She needs love too

Chapter 9

         Ok In chapter 5 I wanted you guys to see how I act in school and whose my new friends. Kiara and I became real close and she tells me everything. Alicia and Tracey still talk to me but I was more close to Kiara. Jovoughn still talks to me and we been having a real good time, we still weren't in a relationship, but it was fun having a boy best friend. Ok back to the story.

We were having our dinner night with the Hymes like we do every other Friday in the kitchen that night..

"Tiana Hows Jovoughn doing?"

"He's ok" A smiled a little and then....

"Why you hang out with that dude anyway, he is mad weird" I looked at him with a confused look and then I ignored it and went back to eating. When I was done I went to bed.

       Few weeks later. I didnt know how much losing my virginity to a person could change me. I started getting jealous when Malachi talked about other girls. Now when we did it, after the fact he dont talk to me until he wants to do it again he act like we friends, and me like a idiot just goes along with it. To top everything off he talks about me with his friends on the phone and I over hear, not about what we do but about how I look, he doesnt really mentioned my name when hes talking but I just know he is talking about me. And I don't know why but I cared way too much of how he thought about me. Some days he was nice and the rest he wasnt and it was driving me insane to the point were I just didnt want to take it any more. You would have think that with everything happening I would have stopped it but I didnt. Ok Let me tell you something about me, I dont like stuff getting stuffed down my throat and obviously i didnt want to suck his dick everytime he asked. First of all I didnt trust him, second of all I dont like it even though i never tried it and last hes not my boyfriend so why would I do it. I always told him no up until that night. He ....pushed two fingers inside me and while he was doing it he asked me again, I said no and then he said look at all the stuff i did for you, I felt guilty but I still didnt want to do it, he said it will only be this one time so guess what I believed him and I didnt like it I was right. I almost vomit, and then he said I could stop and I washed my mouth out and went to bed not wanting to remember anything. The next say I just wanted to leave the house so I called Kiara and she said we could go the skating rink. I wanted to tell her everything but I didn't want her to judge me.