Sooner or later I knew the happiness I had was going to go away. But I was hoping It would be Later. Three days has past since that night and I was over thinking stuff again until I reminded my self its not worth it. It seems like he was going back to his ways of shaming me but I was quite sure yet, and honestly I didnt want to care. When he talked about a girl, i didnt get mad, well I wouldn't say mad but I didnt feel a type of way like I would have felt the first time. My heart jumps a little but, I didn't feel anything. Like I said sometimes I think he talked about girls infront of me on purpose, its like he knew I liked him and he just wanted to hurt me or something. But I couldn't make that get to me, I mean I was trying to get my life together and bring my self-esteem up. So I just shook it off. I mean, What else was I suppose to do?
We kind of talked for those three days, he was being nice or whatever. I still wanted to know why he was doing this but I didnt want. Thats all I wanted, is to be happy. I tried meditation but that didnt work out. I stopped cutting, but my urges kept telling me to continue. The one thing I had on my mind is the same thing thats going to drive me crazy.
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Teen FictionShe thought she had the world figured out. Shes just a simple girl that believed everything society had to say. Growing up Darkskin wasn't easy and to think when she thought she got her shit together guess who broke down all her walls of protection...
