She needs love too

Chapter 19

Christmas break was quickly approaching. All I know is that I couldn't get Kevin out my mind. We were talking and he would always come and hit me in a playful way because I never say hi to him. I really liked him but everybody always told me that I had bad taste in boys but Kevin was different. My mind was running on one thing how do I change things with Malachi. I was thinking of scenarios of what I would say or what I would do. I couldn't have gone into the New Years with this, I wanted my life back, I wanted to be able to go up to a guy and tell him I like him without feeling like a hoe, I wanted to actually have a relationship, I wanted to be happy. But the consequences was to deep, and not knowing how he will react was killing me.
"Ma I'm coming home late after school"
"Why?"
"I'm staying for movie night"
"Ok"
                  To be honest, Kevin just went to the basketball game that day so I wanted to take the train with him, but there really was movie night I went to go see the movie I just left when the game was over. The only problem with that is I didn't know the annoying ass boy that likes me was going to be at Movie night. Only the lord knows why he created him so annoying. I had snuck out the auditorium before the movie was over before he saw me and wanted to leave with me. The game wasn't over so I knew Kevin couldn't walk with me so I left. I texted my best friend Ryan that lived in my hometown so he could keep me company while walking in the dark. I told him about my Kevin and he told me exactly what I knew he was going to say, he sounds bad for you . He didn't even know him or met him. I stopped texting and kept walking. I couldn't but think about what was going on in my life. Then You don't really know me by Jessie j came on and I couldn't help but cry. Like is this really where my life has come to. I felt disgusted with myself like I didn't even know who the hell I was. I was also thinking about how Kevin doesn't really like him he probably want to use me to. I was thinking about my mom my sister and all I know is I'm crying on my way home. I got into the house and took off my clothes and went straight for my room. My mom asked me what happened but as usual I never talk. I fell asleep and at that moment I didn't want to wake back up.