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𝐌𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐄'𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕:
I hadn't slept at all, i spent the night crying to Ivy on the phone it just hurt i mean i thought we were gonna spend the rest of our life's together but now i guess not. I spent the day in bed i didn't move i couldn't my body felt numb.

I heard a knock on the door it was the lady from the front desk telling me i needed to leave so someone else could have the room, i shouted back an okay before slipping into the same outfit from yesterday. I packed my bag up once more before leaving, i waved goodbye to the lady before i slipped back into the car.

As i drove around i was just reminded of Billie, i broke my heart the place we had our first date, where we had our first kiss but what hurt the most was when i drove past the club the she carried my out from in her arms telling me she loved me so much and it was just us two for ever.

After driving around for maybe two hours i found myself at the one place i was trying to avoid, our house. Mine and Billies. Well technically just Billie i just moved in. I put the car in park before getting out and locking it, i walked up to the from door before slipping the key into the whole and there she was.

Speed across the couch shark in her lap and luna waiting by her food bowl, i quickly walked over to Luna making sure not to make to much noise , i leant down petting her head before feeding her and shark then i quietly made my way to the bed room.

I packed a suitcase i wanted it to be quick i didn't want a goodbye i didn't want to see the pain on her face when i told her i wouldn't be coming back. She hurt me, she put us in this place and as much as it pains me to leave it what's for the best.

I wrote a note i know it's shitty but what she's done is worse, i left the room looking back before shutting the door the past few years of my life and in the house and now i'm leaving to start fresh. I felt another warm tear slip from my eye so i quickly shut the door before this could get any worse but as i turned around she was there.

Stood with shock on her face probably confused on why i was back and had my stuff packed into a suitcase, she went to reach for me but i backed away quickly.

"You're back." She breathed out.

"Not for long." I said quietly.

"What do you mean?" She asked.

"I'm leaving Billie, it's for the best." I said wiping my face.

"No please Madeline we can fix this." She said going to grab my hand and i let her.

"Look Billie you have everything here and i have nothing it's for the best if i leave." I said another tear dropping.

"You have me here." She said now crying as-well.

"Had. I had you here now i don't." I said sadly.

"I'm so sorry Mads please let's just fix this it was a mistake." She said now bawling.

"I'm sorry Billie i need to leave my flight is booked maybe we will see each other again one time." I said stepping closer to her.

"I love you Madeline please don't go." She fell into my shoulders crying.

"I love you too Billie i'm sorry." I said before pulling her into one last kiss.

And with that i grabbed my suitcase and Luna and left the house. I couldn't look back it hurt to much , i heard her fall the floor the screams she let out for me to come back but it would only hurt more.

I got back into the car and for the last time i drove out the drive way, i headed straight to the airport and once i pulled up i did the last thing i needed to do before leaving LA. I messaged everyone i knew from here letting them know i wouldn't be coming back.

𝖥𝖨𝖭𝖭𝖤𝖠𝖲

𝗂 𝗁𝖺𝗍𝖾 𝗍𝗈 𝖽𝗈 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗈𝗏𝖾𝗋 𝗍𝖾𝗑𝗍 𝖻𝗎𝗍 𝗂𝗆 𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗏𝗂𝗇𝗀，𝗂𝗆 𝗌𝗈𝗋𝗋𝗒 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗐𝗈𝗇𝗍 𝗌𝖾𝖾 𝗆𝖾 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝖺 𝗐𝗁𝗂𝗅𝖾 𝖡𝗂𝗅𝗅𝗂𝖾 𝗐𝗂𝗅𝗅 𝗍𝖾𝗅𝗅 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋𝗒𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖻𝗎𝗍 𝗂 𝗃𝗎𝗌𝗍 𝖼𝗈𝗎𝗅𝖽𝗇'𝗍 𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗏𝖾 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁𝗈𝗎𝗍 𝗌𝖺𝗒𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗀𝗈𝗈𝖽𝖻𝗒𝖾．𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗇𝗄 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋𝗒𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋 𝖽𝗂𝖽 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝗆𝖾． 𝗂𝗆 𝗀𝗈𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗈 𝗆𝗂𝗌𝗌 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗂 𝗁𝗈𝗉𝖾 𝗍𝗈 𝗌𝖾𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗌𝗈𝗈𝗇．

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𝗂 𝗁𝖺𝗍𝖾 𝗍𝗈 𝖽𝗈 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗈𝗏𝖾𝗋 𝗍𝖾𝗑𝗍 𝖻𝗎𝗍 𝗂𝗆 𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗏𝗂𝗇𝗀，𝗂𝗆 𝗌𝗈𝗋𝗋𝗒 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗐𝗈𝗇𝗍 𝗌𝖾𝖾 𝗆𝖾 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝖺 𝗐𝗁𝗂𝗅𝖾 𝖡𝗂𝗅𝗅𝗂𝖾 𝗐𝗂𝗅𝗅 𝗍𝖾𝗅𝗅 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋𝗒𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖻𝗎𝗍 𝗂 𝗃𝗎𝗌𝗍 𝖼𝗈𝗎𝗅𝖽𝗇'𝗍 𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗏𝖾 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁𝗈𝗎𝗍 𝗌𝖺𝗒𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗀𝗈𝗈𝖽𝖻𝗒𝖾．𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗇𝗄 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋𝗒𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋 𝖽𝗂𝖽 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝗆𝖾． 𝗂𝗆 𝗀𝗈𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗈 𝗆𝗂𝗌𝗌 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗂 𝗁𝗈𝗉𝖾 𝗍𝗈 𝗌𝖾𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗌𝗈𝗈𝗇．

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𝗂 𝗁𝖺𝗍𝖾 𝗍𝗈 𝖽𝗈 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗈𝗏𝖾𝗋 𝗍𝖾𝗑𝗍 𝖻𝗎𝗍 𝗂𝗆 𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗏𝗂𝗇𝗀，𝗂𝗆 𝗌𝗈𝗋𝗋𝗒 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗐𝗈𝗇𝗍 𝗌𝖾𝖾 𝗆𝖾 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝖺 𝗐𝗁𝗂𝗅𝖾 𝖡𝗂𝗅𝗅𝗂𝖾 𝗐𝗂𝗅𝗅 𝗍𝖾𝗅𝗅 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋𝗒𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖻𝗎𝗍 𝗂 𝗃𝗎𝗌𝗍 𝖼𝗈𝗎𝗅𝖽𝗇'𝗍 𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗏𝖾 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁𝗈𝗎𝗍 𝗌𝖺𝗒𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗀𝗈𝗈𝖽𝖻𝗒𝖾．𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗇𝗄 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋𝗒𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋 𝖽𝗂𝖽 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝗆𝖾． 𝗂𝗆 𝗀𝗈𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗈 𝗆𝗂𝗌𝗌 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗂 𝗁𝗈𝗉𝖾 𝗍𝗈 𝗌𝖾𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗌𝗈𝗈𝗇．

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