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𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐚 𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐜𝐤 𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢 𝐝𝐨 𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐤 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐚 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐛𝐢𝐭 𝐬𝐨 𝐢 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐚 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐢𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐢𝐭 𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬. 𝐈𝐟 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐠𝐠𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐡 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐝 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟𝐬.❤️

𝐁𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐄𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕:
It's been hard, i haven't done anything. I'm getting worse as the days go on i'm in pain and i want it to stop. Something is telling me she is gone and im never gonna see her again, i need to leave to be with her. Anytime i went on social media it was all anyone was talking about, people would say that they hoped i was okay. I wasn't, i'm not. Others would say she's dead and we need to stop looking.

I haven't heard from that number, no a message or a photo nothing. Not even something sly to let me know what they have took from me, my life, my love, the only reason i'm breathing and she was stolen from me.

𝐓𝐖: 𝐒𝐇 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐒 𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄⚠️
i was sitting on the bathroom floor it was the only place i felt one one could see me, i had covered all the mirrors in my room i couldn't even look at myself. I felt my body slip down the wall to rest of the floor it had been a hard past few weeks without her you could see it in my eyes.

Without even thinking about it i grabbed the blade, i didn't want to do it but it's the only thing that could stop the pain. I felt that i had made her suffer and go through all this pain then i needed to at least feel some sort of pain as-well.

I slide the blade across my bare skin the red liquid flowing all over, i lifted a weight of my chest, it made me feel less bad for everything. I quickly grabbed a towel from the rack and placed it over my arm. I sat there for a hour i couldn't move my body.

I feel it's my time to go. She's not here so why am i?
𝐓𝐖 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐈𝐒𝐇𝐄𝐃.

𝐌𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕:
I ran, it was all i could do i needed to get away as soon as possible to be back in her arms i didn't know where i was, no one was around to ask so i just kept running. All i could see was building but it looked like no one had been in them for months years even.

I felt like i was running for years even tho it had only been a few hours, i finally saw a car heading my way, i stuck my arm out to try and get their attention and luckily it worked.

"Are you okay." It was a middle age lady she looked around mid 40s.

"Hi yes sorry to bother you but do you know where we are.?" I asked.

"You're that girl from the news, Madeline is it?" She asked back, i had clearly been on the news a lot.

"Yes that me please could you drop me off somewhere." I say.

"Yeah of course get in." She says unlocking the car.

I slipped into the passenger side and put my seatbelt on before we started the journey home. I told her where i needed to go but not in too much detail, she looked sweet but i didn't need her knowing where Billie lived.

The whole ride home all i could think about was being in her arms again, i will still shaken from everything that had happened but she made me feel safe. I just wanted that feeling back.

The ride took a while but i finally knew where i was.

"Just here will do thank you." I say before getting out of the car.

"Stay safe love." She says smiling.

I quickly smile back before i stared running, i could feel my chest tightening from all the running i had done and my breath was going but i still kept going.

I ran up to the from off Billies house and banged on the door, there was no reply. It was the middle of the night but i thought the loud knock would have woke her up. I knock once more but there was still nothing.

I turn on my heels getting ready to leave so i could make me way to her parents house she might be there but then i hear the door click unlocked.

"Hello." I heard her voice.

"Baby?" I said back my voice cracking.

"Baby it's me, i'm home." I say now crying.

The door flung open and i felt her body press up against mine, this was what i escaped for. Not for myself, not for anyone else. I did it just for her.

"I can't believe it you're okay." She says in my ear.

"I'm okay, everything is okay now." I say back.

We both dropped to the floor in silence, we sat in each other's arms for a few minutes before i went to grab her hand and saw something i didn't want to.

"Billie what's that?"

𝐀/𝐍
𝐡𝐢𝐢 𝐠𝐮𝐲𝐬.
𝐒𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐢𝐟 𝐢 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐮𝐩 𝐢 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐢 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐚𝐝𝐝 𝐢𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐤𝐚𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐛𝐞 𝐨𝐤𝐚𝐲 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐞 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞, 𝐢 𝐡𝐨𝐩𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐨!𝐱𝐱