Only in my dreams ( Book one of the Secret Embrace Series)

Secrets

Ch.10 Secrets

I look at Adien for a minute. He has covered up his shock again and now is " writing in his notebook." Of course I know he isn't writing in his notebook because all he has ever done is walk in here, sit down across from me, and try to have a conversation with my stuttering self. And not to mention I have had his notebook before, and it only had one poem in it and that poem is pinned on my wall.

So here I am waiting for him to stop playing pretend and tell me some answers. But I have one problem I wasn't really gifted with patience..I guess that's one reason why Emma and me get along so well..we try to get everything done and figured out.

I start humming a song in my head and look out the window. It's hot outside so Ms. Nelson has the air cranked up, I finally stopped shaking a few minutes ago. Now my mind is on why a person who looked like Liam wanted me in a nightmare to forget someone?.Someone I clearly cared for.. apparently for him to want to make him be just a dream.

But it was just a nightmare I tell myself before the shaking starts again. I have to relies I have never been in a circle of people chanting before. Especially over someone I was in love with enough that the other guy deemed it necessary to try to vanquish it into it being just a dream.

I rub my arms with my hands, feeling Adien's jacket.. it is so soft and warm. I look at him again before I sniff the sleve part, making it look like I was just turned to the window again. It smells so good like the woods mixed with some type of fragrance but I can not put a name to it..it is just something I would call..well Adien.

I am lost in thought and in getting caught smelling his jacket that his voice startles me.

"Why are you humming " All around me " by Flyleaf?" Adien ask curious.

Because I can feel something all around me and it sets the mood I think sarcastically.

" I don't know it's stuck in my head..I guess." I say with a shrug not letting my eyes leave the window.

" Ash come on...Ash look at me..please." He says pleading sweetly.

Ha! No way! I am not falling for that one again! Last time that happened I spilled the beans about my nightmare and what the guy looked like..a guy I know all to well. A guy Adien warned me about in a poem which makes me think he knows more than he wants to tell me. And that really pisses me off. Especially since I was the one being chanted over, by a bunch of who knows what, with a guy that looked exactly like Liam!!

So I just keep staring at the window ignoring the pleas and the puppy dog looks. I hear him cuss under his breath some and I smile. I quickly cover it up with the jacket sleeve before he sees. This is what he gets for keeping secrets I tell myself.

" Ash if I could tell you I would...but now isn't the right time okay. You know I would tell you in a heart beat if I could." He said distinctively.

Ha! I knew he was hiding something from me!

" Well you have to tell me something Adien...why else would you write " Be careful around Liam" and give him looks like you want to rip his head off? I mean you "supposedly" met each other last week so excuse me for kinda being a little pissed..but I don't like people who know something that is going on and doesn't tell me..especially when it is very important.." I say and stare into his eyes showing how serious I am about this whole thing.

If only he knew how it felt like to go about his night with restful sleep..not being able to remember a single dream. THEN BAM you rememeber one and it is about someone you was once close with,surrounded by people chanting, shoving red crap down your throat, and making you try to forget someone you obviously cared very much about. Of course he wouldn't understand ..he probably goes to sleep every night peacefully, dreaming about amazing things. Things I can never remember..