Only in my dreams ( Book one of the Secret Embrace Series)

Haunting

Ch.18 Haunting

Everywhere I look I see Adien's face, smiling at me, or I feel his touch sending the electricity up my arms through my body, quick starting my heart, just the thought of him right now brings tears to my eyes as I sit in Art wondering why he left me here alone.

I look out the window as rain drops start to sprinkle down the window. I remember when I was a little kid I used to watch the rain drops slide down the glass and try to make a race out of them to see which one would make it to the end first. Of course right now I daydream that the sky is just like me sadden and broken letting the tears fall down with rain because it wants the sun. Thunder roars and I hear a few gasps out of my class mates. I always loved thunder storms but today it just feels like to much.

I look around my bag until my hands come across my notebook, I search for my pen and then begin trying to find a clean page to work on. I am still flipping, whenever my hands come across a poem that used to tug on my heart. As I read Adiens words about wanting me after losing me though, it feels like his words are just haunting me.

" Ash." I look up to see Emma's face looking at me with concern.

" Yeah." I say out of energy to, worked up on all the things that are happening to me all at once.

" The bell just rang it's time for lunch..I guess you didn't hear it you looked pretty dazed out. Do you want to talk about it?". She asks whenever I flinch after she touches my shoulder.

She helps me put my things in my bag as I stay silent staring at Adiens empty desk in front of me. I don't know what to say to her anything that comes out of my mouth right now would be a lie. But maybe it would be better than telling her the truth, one of us at least deserves to be oblivious.

" I'm fine..I just have a lot of stuff on my mind today." I say when I finally stand, I feel like my legs are going to give out on me at any minute so I quickly finish with, " I don't think I should go to lunch today." my hand grabs on to the table with dear life. I need to get out of here I need some fresh air. I feel like a fish out of water as I try to get my senses together.

Breathe Ash you won't be any good to anyone if you don't!! My brain screams at me bringing me back to reality.

" Are you sure?" Emma asks as I nod my head yes. " Okay then do you want me to drive you home?"

My legs finally get up enough strength to walk to the door with her but every step feels off like someone broke me and put me back together funny. " No ...I think it would be better if I walked home, I need the fresh air anyways." I try to make a small laugh but it feels like I am being strangled.

" Walk?? but it is storming outside!" She looks at me like I am crazy ad I shrug my shoulders.

" I like the rain and besides it is only sprinkling and the thunder is way off so it's not to bad right now and besides I don't live that far from the school if it gets to bad I will just call my mom." I finish like it is nothing and start heading to the double doors at the end of the hallway.

" Okay but make sure you text me as soon as you get there or else I am kicking your ass for talking me into this!" She yells after me as I give her a small wave, cross my fingers at her showing her I promise, and exit the doors making my way to the sidewalk outside.

"This is what you need Ash just a little fresh air." I tell myself as I head out of the school property. I look around hoping no one heard me talking to myself and when I don't see anyone I pull out my Ipod and start looking through the songs to listen to on my walk home. I finally decide I don't know what I want to listen to and just put it on shuffle and back in the pocket of my jeans.