Only in my dreams ( Book one of the Secret Embrace Series)

Adien's P.O.V

*Adiens's P.O.V *

Thoughts race inside my mind as I go to Ash's house, I remember when I first saw her in Salem, Massachusetts, how beautiful she was and is now. I didn't know I could ever love someone as much as I do her.

I pull up to the drive way and make my way to the door. My heart is beating wildly, like all the other times I am near her. I can hear her thoughts faintly from here, something I always cherished.

I called before I pulled up but I didn't get an answer. I know she isn't dreaming anymore, she left that world a few hours ago. At least I can still be with her there, the way we are suppose to be, like soul mates. I wonder if she knows her dreams take her to another world, and that that world is as real as this one? Of course she hasn't remembered a single dream of us since the whole bit with Liam. His name leaves a sour taste in my mouth and I despise it. I stare at the door trying to calm my nerves before I see Ash. Beautiful, loving, Ash.

I reach the door and ring the bell, I can hear her getting out of bed and going down the stairs. Her thoughts are becoming more coherent...I smile she thinks it's Emma..oh what a surprise this will be. My smile turns into a frown when I hear her other thoughts, why would Liam be in Emma's trunk? I question wondering what could have possibly happened.

She is surprised to see me when she opens the door and I can hear her heart beating a little faster. I try to cover up my surprise as well at seeing her in pj's that show off a lot of leg and chest. I try not to stare but it is kinda hard not to..of course I have seen her like this before..

But she doesn't know that idiot! My mind screams, so I look down at the ground chastising myself. She thinks I am being a gentleman but if only she knew, of course that is Liam's fault to.

I tell her why I am here, to apologize ..I wish I could apologize for so much more..but if I did she wouldn't understand and it would just lead to her having more questions than she already has now.

I look into her eyes if only she could remember..we wouldn't have to be like this. I wouldn't have to go through all these ordeals just to see her. If it was up to me, she wouldn't have to go to another world just to be with me. She would be with me always..and she would wake up in my arms every morning, happy, not having to worry about trying to find a place she belongs in..because we belong to each other.

But of course it is not up to me anymore..Liam ruined that many years ago. " At least you have her now.." I try to console myself..but for how long? I question internally. That is always the question.

She excuses herself to go and change and invites me in. I walk around for a bit as I hear her stumbling around to get ready. I can hear her cursing at herself and I can not help but smile. I see a picture of her on the fridge as I walk into the kitchen, she is the age she is now..her beautiful face is lit up and her wavy hair is done in curls, her best friend is behind her making faces as she smiles at the camera with her bright, beautiful brown eyes.

I catch myself putting the picture in my pocket. Before I can rationales what I am doing, I hear her coming down the stairs. Well..it's to late now besides it is only one picture I tell myself as I go to find her.

She is in the living room with her hands on her hips as I walk in. I am lost in her thoughts when she sees my shadow, and screams. Not thinking, I cover her mouth. I apologize at once as I put my hands in my pockets, and look down, ashamed at what I did.

I ask if she can forgive me. Stupid! I keep telling myself. Think before you act I reprimand myself, have you not learned anything from before?

I look her in the eyes as I await my judgement. Please don't be mad..please don't let this be the last I see you.